HI! I am new here, and I don't know if I am posting in the right place but I'd appreciate it if you'd read my storyㅠ.ㅠ. I was an HUGEEEE fan of BTS. I first saw them in their BST mv and they immediately became my first K pop group that I love. Even though I live in Korea I hadn't shipped (?) any group or even fell in love with anyone because I don't want any kind of short, light love with childish boys at my age. So BTS was my first love and it was so sweet at first. After little more than a year, DNA came out and I was mind controlled at that part where everyone holds hands and make a wave with JK in middle. It felt really strange.
You might not quite get it when I say that I felt that I was mind mindcontrolled but since when I was young, like 9 years old I saw ghosts. Some might not believe because neither my parents believed me. When I turned like 12, I started hearing really dark and deep, evil voices that pretends to be God and that lures me. I guess it is just because God wants me to be able to recognize and distinguish God and evil clearly. So I'm really sensitive that now I can feel God warning me if I am in danger or I might get badly hurt by instinct. * I am not trying to be like 'Ooh, I am so special' because I know I am a sinful, powerless and week human that's easily defeated by evil * . However, I felt like I wanted to be like Jk or BTS after watching DNA. So I asked my friends if they'd do a cover dance of BTS (but of course they refused) and I even wanted to become an idol one day;; Sometimes I felt like I really want to win BTS even by getting rid of them. But I loved them at the same time.
AND I'M WARNING YOU ANALYZING K POP VIDEOS AND STUFFS TO FIND SYMBOLISMS MIGHT LEAD YOU TO BE MINDCONTROLLED!
and I wouldn't really want that...
Like a week before comeback of fake love, my friend who's name means 'grace of God' came to me and talks about illuminati. I started researching and woke up, realizing that I had known that BTS is against Jesus. After I woke up from their mind control I remembered that even before their comeback of DNA, I knew how evil they were although I don't quite remember how much I knew about illuminati back then. But I remember that wished that RM would come around and tell me that God does not exist so that I won't have to feel guilty loving them. Now that I know that I had been committing idolatory, living a whole life of lies under illuminati, and that my dream of performing in front of people was not even what 'I' wanted, I don't know what to do now.
I am trying to hold on to God but what else can I do? God has given me the ability to see, hear, and feel evil and distinguish them. God has woke me up by using one of his person. My real name means that I am a person of God's. But the illuminati had changed parts of bible and some churches are part of illuminati and now I don't know what to believe. All I can do now is to pray to God and hold on to him. I believe that there's more I can do and more I should so as a person set where I am by God. I wonder if there are more people like me cause I really have no one to ask. Not even my family or friends. I believe that one person can change a LOT of things and prayers can too. While waiting for Jesus's second coming, I am eager to do anything for others who are still asleep but they won't listen. They say that I am preaching. I don't know A LOT about illuminati but I know pretty much about it and I hope that it could help. This might not quite be the place that I should be talking about all these things but I figured out that not much people in Christianity believes that illuminati exists and my story has illuminati as a big factor so this is the only place that could help me out. Thank you for reading this long text.