Hello everyone!
It's the first time I write here. I found this thread by chance, I was looking for something else, also about kpop. I am very glad that I found a place where people have realistic thinking! I think you are from another dimension, because I haven't known such amazing people in my life!
I want to say that English is the third one for me so I apologize for mistakes!
I've read many of your discussions but I would ever want to be able to do that! It's like a book! The best detectives! I would very much like to be a detective!
I want to tell you how it all started:
My best friend is a Bts fan. Until then, I had not even heard of Korea. The first Korean I was listening to was Psy. But I thought he was chinese. I was contradicting with my aunt, she said that he is korean and I said that he is chinese. I did not know what "Korean" means.
I was 10 years old.. and I did not have a phone.
Thanks to her, I gave them a chance.
I immediately became obsessed! I was 14, but I have never been obsessed with anything before.
I was not listening to anything else. I did not want anything else.
After that something serious happened! I started to stop believing in God. I am Christian, and I always prayed and talked to God before bedtime. I had dreams with Him before. Very beautiful dreams! In some even
I saw who hurt my family. I think I was endowed with a gift!
I did not understand why I do not want to believe in Him anymore! I was thinking of all the beautiful dreams, but something was trying to keep me away.. Bad things started to happen to me! Three times, when I was asleep, I felt that something was coming into me, as I started to shake, and screamed when that thing was coming out of me. I was very afraid! VERY! I told my friend, but he did not believe me.. Nobody believes.. but I know you will believe me.
Then I started to pray again and believe in Him, again. But at every Bts comeback I started to stop believing. I did not want that.. I was fighting with myself.. I was in a little depression. I felt just that they could cure me. I was so skinny and unhealthy. But I felt fat beside the girls groups.. I tried to lose weight and I did a lot of exercise, but it did not work. After which I quit, so now I added weight. Now I'm chubby. Now, not before, as I thought.. But that's not important!
For a while, I started to gradually quit kpop.
I'm sure God takes care of me and does not want me to deal with them anymore!
Now, I do not listen to kpop anymore!
Thank you for reading all I wrote!