blackdwarf
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- Jul 25, 2019
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Guys, I'm really sad.
Actually a days ago I felt stressed because I have to do many tasks and practicum reports, then I still have this 'futur' phase where I'm still detached from God. Because of this stress problem, exhausting schedules and my focus problem, my emotional state was facing a more problem. So I cured myself by listening to some k-pop songs and another songs (oh God), I really don't give a shit about this.
Then I found that stupid song "jopping" and found it catchy and really sounds good for my ears. It was an irony since I was really aware before with this crap and now I enjoyed that song without feeling guilty while doing my fu*king practicum report. And I repeated the song more than twice omg (what the hell r u doing blackdwarf) Firstly I really can do my practicum report well, but I feel stressed and more stressed.
And actually I should doing a muroja'ah or play the murotal Qur'an than playing that stupid song "we r jumping and popping so we're jopping". I didn't know why but I feel hypnotized when watching the MV and heard the song, then I wasn't on the right mind when I almost broke the play button for hearing that song more than twice.
It was really
And I was fangirling over Lucas boi and hearing Teamintz old songs. I thought that Teamintz wasn't satanic and still pure at that time so it was okay to enjoy the songs.
But.
The news about Sulli really shocked me. Like, she was really passed away? Really? By suicide? Then I thought about a sacrifice theory, and also S(u)perm. I just-- feel angry. I didn't know why. That bois are really the bastards. Fu*king bastards. Sorry for my language but I really no longer have a respect for the bois.
First Jjong and now Sulli. This industy was really available for the money and fame hunger.
Fame, flashlight. Give it to them.
Actually a days ago I felt stressed because I have to do many tasks and practicum reports, then I still have this 'futur' phase where I'm still detached from God. Because of this stress problem, exhausting schedules and my focus problem, my emotional state was facing a more problem. So I cured myself by listening to some k-pop songs and another songs (oh God), I really don't give a shit about this.
Then I found that stupid song "jopping" and found it catchy and really sounds good for my ears. It was an irony since I was really aware before with this crap and now I enjoyed that song without feeling guilty while doing my fu*king practicum report. And I repeated the song more than twice omg (what the hell r u doing blackdwarf) Firstly I really can do my practicum report well, but I feel stressed and more stressed.
And actually I should doing a muroja'ah or play the murotal Qur'an than playing that stupid song "we r jumping and popping so we're jopping". I didn't know why but I feel hypnotized when watching the MV and heard the song, then I wasn't on the right mind when I almost broke the play button for hearing that song more than twice.
It was really
And I was fangirling over Lucas boi and hearing Teamintz old songs. I thought that Teamintz wasn't satanic and still pure at that time so it was okay to enjoy the songs.
But.
The news about Sulli really shocked me. Like, she was really passed away? Really? By suicide? Then I thought about a sacrifice theory, and also S(u)perm. I just-- feel angry. I didn't know why. That bois are really the bastards. Fu*king bastards. Sorry for my language but I really no longer have a respect for the bois.
First Jjong and now Sulli. This industy was really available for the money and fame hunger.
Fame, flashlight. Give it to them.