Oh man, did I wrestle with this!
I decided to be alone. The range of men we have to pick on in my town is real bad, most of them are autistic, so I gave up 2009. Since then I've tried a couple of more times but it wasnt working so I stopped and it's still the same; those who come on to me are autistic, unattractive ortoo old (talking 70 years old here) so it seems I'm meant to be alone. After all, I am 40+ so it should have happened by now, lol!
My girlfriends have the same problem so all of them but one are single and the one in a relationship, is unstable. One day her guy (who suffers from depression which is another common problem around here and often follows autism) wants to be with her and the next they're broken up, I seriously dont know how she copes but I can tell it drains her.
There was ONE guy back in -08 whom I kept in touch with for ten years but only online, we never met. He was 6'2, 229lbs muscles, dark brown hair, white skin and looked like Brandon Routh in Superman, we had the same taste in music, the same taste in film and politics, basically he was everything I had been looking for but he was too mean. I mean really mean, he'd say things about my appearance that wasnt true just to hurt me and start conversations in a very rude and hurtful way, completely in lack of respect.
Now, in 2019, he's still alone and haven't had any women, guaranteed bc of this. He's 36 and have never been in a longterm relationship or meets any women. I talked to another woman whom I met on a forum and it turned out she had been hit on by him aswell (small world) and he had been just as rude to her so she told me to check her instagram and I did. I could see he was just the same with her and then checked others he had been talking to aswell, same thing there. I guess he might be a narcissist since he's extremely shallow and spends alot of time at the gym. He has this attitude as "I'm better than you which gives me the right to talk down to you so you don't forget your place" I've never met someone like that, it was like you couldn't believe how rude he was. Like a complete lack of upbringing or some mental fault. So even though I back then didnt know anything about narcissism, I thought instantly "Narcissist" and as it turns out I did some digging and his friends say he lives in a dream world full of fantasies where he's the king so yeah, defo a narc. Such a damn shame but ofc there had to be something wrong with a guy that looks like a "god" but is single.
At this stage of my life I have to say I'm happy I'm alone since I dont have the energy to deal with someone else aswell. I focus on surviving with an illness that affects every part of my life and cant worry about a partner aswell. So for me, being alone is better.
And besides I'm not completely alone; I have my pet; Tiny Pancake, a bitter, violent but cute animal, and I live down town so I hear and see people all the time, even when I dont want to, lol.
I think the reason that so many have problems finding partners these days, is because we live in the end times. People have basically gone crazy.