Here it goes.
As I said, I attended the 2nd night in Chicago. It rained the entire show. I forgot which one of you went to the show in Cali, but I do remember you saying the part when NJ said "We are IDOLS!" made you cringe; it made me cringe too.
The thing I want to talk about the most is JM and NJ but first I have to say their colors seem to be officially pink and blue. H0pe had on a beautiful shirt with encrusted, glittery rhinestones and those colors. Except for the leader, they all wore pink or blue or a combination of both in their outfits for the medley stage. One could say this is because of the LY and Persona album colors but they seem to be the colors for them as of late. I thought about the LGBTQ and p***philia topics we discussed.
If some of you may remember in my old posts, I've talked about attending their shows as I'm one of the few here who is still considered a fan (I don't associate with the fandom). I've been to a show for every tour since Red Bullet, so I've noticed the differences in each show. One of the biggest differences? They don't dance as much anymore. I could tell you how many songs they actually danced to but I don't want to recap about it. JK hardly danced during his solo stage.
Now onto JM and NJ. The one thing I found odd was this VCR and the way JM's solo stage for Serendipity followed directly after. This is what bothered my spirit the most and I felt a sadness (I'm an empath, can't help it). I didn't cry, but I teared up a little bit. It moved me because I am aware of what's happening and this single VCR and his performance solidified everything we've talked about here. I am not stating this as fact, but I have no doubt in my mind JM is being abused in some form or fashion and I believe it is all sexual as well as mental. I believe that's why he acts the way he does and has deep insecurities.
This current tour is the same exact one from the last tour with a couple of newer songs thrown in. Same setlist, VCRs and lineup.
JM's solo was slightly different from last year even though he performed the same song right after the same VCR was shown. He dances much softer and has effeminate, delicate moves now. The difference in this year's performance vs last year is noticeable. I know he's a trained contemporary dancer. There was nothing masculine about the way he moved compared to his dancers who danced like you would expect a man to.
The VCR is below. Please watch it. I'm posting two: The one with NJ is the one I saw on last year's tour and on the 2nd night of Chicago's show. I'm posting the other one with YG in it since it is clearer. They're pretty much the same though.
Watching the VCR, JM looked like a small child trapped in an observation room and NJ looked to be controlling him. On the flipside, they also looked like lovers thinking of each other and mimicking each other's movements. The whole thing made me uncomfortable period despite knowing what I know. (Watch it for yourself.) The VCR ended and JM's solo started out with him in inside of a clear bubble with a miniature garden. He looked so gorgeous; that's the best way I can describe it. He also wore a black and white shirt (duality). I couldn't tell if he looked sad, attempting to look sexy, drugged...I couldn't tell! I only know that his dancing was very effeminate.
These things were the only ones that really stood out to me. I couldn't wait to get back to post about it here. Almost forgot to mention, whoever said his voice is thinning, I can see that. Was he chemically castrated or taking hormones? Not saying. His voice does seem to be lighter than ever now.
Here are the VCRs. I'm posting the one with NJ first, the one with YG second. Whichever one you watch, they're both creepy. JM is extremely childlike in this. Look for the multiples and checkout his dangling earrings in both ears.
Please watch and let me know what you think. NJ needs to not try to be cute. It doesn't work for him, lol.
