at first when i figured out this is and HAS BEEN going on for a long time around just when i thought life couldn't be any worse i really thought i was being trolled. and still being trolled right now too because it's just beyond satanic. can't even put into words how fucking satanic. i'm too weak for this mk ultra hullabaloo. i've been putting off reading The Illuminati Formula Used to Create an Undetectable Total Mind Controlled Slave by Cisco Wheeler and Fritz Springmeier because i know i'm going to be affected by how they program the human mind controlled slave like a computer, even just glossing over the table of contents it's really hard trying to absorb what it is. it's so fucked up and i'm so stumped because no one outside of this community accepts that it's happening. they think the world is working towards their favor and interests when they could care less about your wellbeing. this is what i felt. the reason why it doesn't stop at not giving a shit about our wellbeing is because satan hates humans. that's why he goes far above and beyond to reach and pull out indescribable despair out of humans. i know it's all unfolding and coming to the open for god's end glory but the stark chaotic contrast to that which is satan's plans for the destruction of humanity imploding, it's too much i can't help wanting to die. i've been depressed before but not this much. to the point where i genuinely wish i wasn't born. i was trying to reply earlier but i was too depresso i didn't even have the energy to type.
when they're programmed and abused by those slobby dorito fingered filthy dirtbag meatsack pedos in a million one eyed piss thongs under their captain fat pants doesn't it mean they don't really have a choice because like no shit they're under mk ultra and if their personalities are all split up then their main personality wouldn't even really be fine either only appear fine on the outside. how would it be? when there are a bunch of alters inside of them. they're being controlled by their handlers so how is that having a choice? i feel like they only have a choice when it comes to the kpop contract and not given a choice about being programmed against their will. so once they get programmed i find it hard to believe they have any choice about the way they've been affected to the core that's why they continue to be a star and seem fine on the outside when they don't know they're not. and their main personality IS affected by the alters in them that's why they become so sick and haggard outwardly. and at one point all those dark alters seep through into the main one so everyone thinks they like being what they are and doing what they do but the trauma that's not plainly visible is them not being able to have a choice to escape at all. when they're "sober and fine" aren't they still subconsciously impacted by the abuse they secretly go through? and if they do something questionable it's due to that? sorry if the question doesn't make sense i'm trying to understand it as there's a lot to stomach in. like unless when they signed their contract they choked a baby to death and ate the baby whole afterwards i don't see how their sober selves are innately evil and proud of what they are. they actually think they're normal so they act that way with no signs of being abused in the industry aside from the evilblatant symbolism. when they don't even know they're forced to do weird ritual shit/forced to put up with sexual abuse in what i'm assuming solely their alters. so what i'm saying is even if they had a choice that's not really having a choice due to their actions being subconsciously influenced by their alters.
Hi i know how you feel
I have been and i am on this rollercoaster at times too (especially not wishing i was born happens a lot but only God's will is the thing that will guide us )
But remember that the Lord will protect and care for his sheep
His children will see the world go in front of their eyes...
If you are one of God's children then you are one of many soldiers
Keep fighting the good fight
I know it's really hard trust me but we have to
(Ps : of course they don't care
They are supposed to be the enemy little minion smh )
(Also i can tell you this : many of them have been born into it (abuse,rituals,etc... ) so it is the norm for them
Those idols are satan little minion (distracting people from what is really important is their main goal most of the time)(also lust,adultery and many other things)
I can only pray for you to be free of worrying about this kind of people
It's not worth it
As i said the other time purple used pretty often usually signifies a 33rd degree freemason rank and that means they know who they are worshipping now and don't back away from it
Remember the dude "crowley" he was a 33rd degree freemason (same rank as them ) and ran the church of satan smh
They are worshipping the enemy now and they know it
(The subconscious and what you are talking about is usually part of your soul,spirit and this part belongs to the enemy as well for them (the mind isn't there anymore long gone )
If you are a child of God : remember Ephesians 5:11-12 KJV
I hope i don't come in as a know it all
But it made me sad to see what you wrote
Have a good day to you and everyone else !