@Colonel Valerio - a good question as usual. I will give you my perspective and leave it to others to share theirs.
You said “
lack of belief that I can not believe in because it doesn’t co-exist with reality.”
I was thinking about this as I was driving along and it occurred to me that there is the “data” of reality and the “narrative” of how we make sense of it. On a practical level, this takes place in courts of law all the time. There may be a dead body in the back garden. How did it get there? Two different narratives of reality are presented to the jury, neither of which may be true! Getting to the truth is tricky like that. You may end up with a court and a particular verdict coming out that has nothing to do with “reality” at all, in the same way as the ebb and flow of general opinion on a forum might be more towards one spiritual or philosophical position or another, without necessarily having the slightest thing to do with truth. Rather like jury members, we each have the chance to listen to the various accounts and decide for ourselves who we will believe and who we reject.
The Book of Job plays out in many ways like this fictional trial. Bad things happen to Job. God removes His hand of protection within certain limits. Satan takes delight in exacting destruction. Job has no information how or why such tragedy should befall him. It’s a long book, full of opinion pieces from various contributors but only at the end does God speak. Along the way, the idea to “curse God and die” is suggested to him, but fortunately that was not the end of the account.
In Job 38, God speaks:-
1 Then the Lord answered Job out of the whirlwind, and said:
2 “Who is this who darkens counsel
By words without knowledge?
3 Now prepare yourself like a man;
I will question you, and you shall answer Me...
Job’s problem was that he lacked the understanding of what had really gone on and who God really was.
In inviting us to sit in moral judgement of God, there is the invitation to “darken council without knowledge”. There is perhaps in the mind of some the notion that
if one might be able to create a persuasive moral narrative against God, He would cease to exist (or at least lose the right to judge sin, having shown himself to be a
compromised judge).
In the latter parts of the Revelation of John, such a critique is attempted by those who remain on the earth. How does God have the right to judge them?
In many ways, this book seems to echo the situation of Job, where Gods hand of protection has been removed, Satan given a free hand and the narrative on the earth will be very much along the lines of hatred towards God, as presented presently by the Bishop.