Im sitting here at home thanking and praising the Lord Jesus Christ and God the father as we speak. He is truly good to those who seek him and even those who don't. The Lord has been moving in my life this past year ever since I really began to put his kingdom first and come out of the world as he calls us to. Im living with a brother in the Lord and we frequently go into our prayer room and seek him. Gods presence has been so thick there lately its incredible. Everything just becomes so peaceful and still and you begin to feel very giddy inside, the whole atmosphere changes. I just smile and feel immensely loved.
Im not sure what you would do in renouncing the Lord. Its kind of like after you know and experience God and he begins to perform miracles signs and wonders on your behalf as you do his will it becomes obvious God is indeed real and working with you to bring salvation and knowledge of his son Jesus Christ to this world. If someone is truly in Christ then that means they have been born again and the holy spirit is in them. God comes inside and dwells within you through the holy ghost, Christ will bethroth you to him and his spirit in union with your spirit brings wholeness healing and completion. The only two things in all of existence that can heal you in the way you truly need to be healed are the spirit of God and the blood of Jesus. Christians need to learn how to walk in the kingdom to truly experience God in the way that he calls us to and the way that will satisfy them as a person created in the image of God.
God is a loving father and we come to know him as a father through the spirit of adoption, the holy spirit, Gods SEED. Its not about going to church or religion it is about relationship with God as he created us as relationship oriented beings. I talk to God as a father everyday as if he is a father or really good friend and I am always filled with joy and peace as I draw near to him by the blood of Christ as his word promises. He is in us via the holy spirit. The bottomline is that you can't be whole or complete apart from God. Running from him is sort of like resisting yourself seeing as how you were created in his image, you were made to receieve of him and apart from him you cant be a complete person. You need the spirit of God and God to live within you to be whole.
Im not sure if you understand the gospel, but the Bible says to examine yourself.
Examine yourselves, to see whether you are in the faith. Test yourselves. Or do you not realize this about yourselves, that Jesus Christ is in you?—unless indeed you fail to meet the test! (2 Corinthians 13:5)
Do you believe with all your heart that Jesus is the son of God?
Do you believe that Jesus died for your sins?
Do you believe that Jesus was crucified and rose again from the dead on the third day and now sits at the right hand of God?
Do you believe he is your only hope and the only way to heaven?
Do you acknowledge that he is your only merit before God and that he is the only justification you have to enter into the kingdom of heaven? Do you recognize that your own self perceived goodness and good deeds can not and do not save you or justify you before God?
Have you asked God to forgive you? Have you truly surrendered and given your life to Christ and asked him to save you and adopt you into his kingdom? God commands all men everywhere to repent, to repent is to acknowledge your sin and guilt before God, to renounce and come out of the world and be separate, to turn to God with your whole heart. The Bible says that friendship with the world is enmity with God and whoever is a friend of the world is an enemy of God. The Bible says to “ come out from among them, and be ye separate, saith the Lord, and touch not the unclean thing; and I will receive you. And will be a Father unto you, and ye shall be my sons and daughters, saith the Lord Almighty. (2 Corinthians 6:17-18)