The thing is, If I read you right, you are content to live your “best life now“ within the moral standards you choose for yourself, and not wish for any “eternal” life. Some people are like that, but it raises an interesting question that relates to the present lockdown. Let me explain.
For some people, the present lockdown has led them to cancel their holiday, stop having days out, stay at home and now their lawn. They seem quite content. Others feel like gnawing their own legs off under the same environment because the desire for freedom and adventure is still alive in them.
I think I’m a similar way, some people manage to be contented atheists, and can hum along lines from “Imagine” while others feel desperate for something more and turn to anything to find it. Accordingly, they may become addicts or hedonists to try to find their answer. Of course this doesn’t work, but it is an expression of a troubled heart.
C.S. Lewis went on a spiritual journey fuelled by a desire for joy. His destination surprised him:-
C.S. Lewis,
The Weight of Glory, and Other Addresses