If someone thinks to be ugly,fat,chubby,or had a father who criticizes him and make feel him garbage do you think this person could be at ease on camera?
Maybe using drugs,or alcohols,or with teraphist who tell him to focus on his work and don't think to camera and judges.
He loves music,and his father told him that he will be a failure.This pushed him to rebel and to do the best to realize his dream.
Judges and critics hurt people,and a child need father's support
If this is not present this kid will grow feeling empty.A mother can't fill this void that a father left.This need a mental work to overpass this loss.Also they were poor and he became the man of the family,this was a reaction of what happened and he tried to help his family gaining money.He had this will to became an idol,to bring money at home,make his family proud,we don't know the pressure he had in his family,the mother i think projected her frustrations on him.
And he grew up with the feeling that he had to became the best to fill his inner void,help his mother.Koreans obey to family.
He tried to find a family in Sh1nee ,he wanted to be loved.And he projected his dreams into the others members.But he was weak.
Also this was not what made him happy.He loved writing.
The others enjoy the fame.And he felt different from them,so he wanted to stay at home because a part of him was disgusted by this kind of life.
About Ta3min i think he is very good to fake emotions,he seems like a prostitute and i wonder if lee freemason abused him
This happy persona he has is very fake,this is to cope the pressures.I think his family is a family of handlers,and he come from bloodline.He was chosen because of his energy,and Master numbers.I think his family is in the occult,and that he has a great intuition and open third eye because in some videos seems very gifted,he guessed things and he felt fans emotions.
Masons open the third eye with initiation
And people who loves rock metal are attracted to occult.Most pagans and witches are dark,goth.And Ta3min loves this kind of music and dressed as Marilyn manson for Halloween.He is very open to his dark side.He could have mental breakdown because if he has a great personality he could try to rebel to this program.He was raised as a special kid,and maybe trained like the others mk ultra babies,so it explains why he loves horror movies and he is not scared about things that for him are normal.
I will check the link you send me,thanks