Bearry
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Woah.... I know it's an old post but since you have been around recently I wanna ask how do you know those contents were meant for you? I mean, why bts or staff even need to be bothered with you to play with your mind? Did you have any beef with them?Hello people this is my story and maybe better said Floriii's story.
You would probably believe I am crazy because that's what I believed too cause I blamed myself so much for what happened to me because of them. But things got so weird that I thought I might reaveal it to the public for the first time( there are dates and lyrics connected including V's grandma's death).
[I m sory if there are english mistakes]
Even since I joined the fandom (run era 2015) I wanted to know if they are part of the famous Iluminatti. I think that's one of the reasons I joined it. As time passed I got that flame that we all got at the start, starting following any news ab them and saving so many photos.
But I also got a not that pure wish : to make them know me, or at least be able to recognise my face on the street and make them come to my country to have a concert there bc here are a lots of fans who want to see them perfom but they got no clue ab it.
So it happened that Rap Monster "answered" like 2 days after I posted a tweet ab my hardships at school and in life.(early 2016) It was really formulated like a reply to me and I think it was a tweet (i can show it if u want later). But even tho I was happy, I started believe he might got an eye on me. Time went on and I posted a photo of me surrouned by trees in bloom. Two days after that RM posted a photo alike looking flirty..
Ok but you also should know that as time passed I found more and more proof about Iluminatti and I was 98% convinced that I should leave the fandom bc of the bad influence and bc it ate precious time that I should have spend on study (being an army made me become such a bad student).
Ok but the name of my twitter acc was Floriii, and once I used an app( i don't remember its name, but it was like a cute chicken robot that talk automatically with u) and I asked "who Namjoon loves?" and it answered me "a girl named Florii but he is shy about it and he keeps it secret". This scared the shit out of me but also made me keep this name on my profile (the actual fuck).
Ok so everyday I ve been trying to escape the fandom and focus on what s important but I kept thinking ab that weird shit ab Rap Monster and wanted to convience myself he doesn't follow me (Guys I know it seems stupid now but I will later give same some scary facts). Ok so I become more and more attached on him and I once send him a note ab how he should be more confident and write more lyrics in songs and some psychological methods that worked on me to overcome pessimism.
After TWO DAYS he posted that video "let me touch you heart, let me touch your mind,let me touch your everything"( you can find it if u search it). Then I became more and more paranoic til I told him I liked him.. after two days he posted a tweet looking far away on a balcony and making a joke of words "separating us"(the distance); (If u ask for dates I will give u but for now I just want to tell the story).
Some days after I started to believe it kinda strongly and told him jockingly (without @) that I know he is following me. Then bighit posted a tweet of them afterconcert and in the photo rm was looking dreamy with lovely eyes on the camera and the others pointing on the camera ; the description of this tweet was " you are my miss right". Then I thought it's only him but when I tryed to answer some members' tweets and didn't answered Jk's one. I told jimin something ab his soup and jk went like "Jimin's soup isn t such a big deal you should try it with some etc etc" (this is the tweet I didn't answer) and then he posted the second day a selca and the description:"....".
And more to come I mean I had an argument once with Rm and they stopped posting for 5 days til I apologised and asked them to come back.
Yeah.. and even since then I ve been sending them photos and sharing with them things I was doing m, but actually I wanted to make a plan to make them believe in God or at least change them a little ( I wasn t sure if it would work or if this shit is real but I wanted to try).
One day.. at the end if august I told myself that this shit can t go on bc even tho it makes sense in my head it is driving me crazy, so I deactivated my acc to see what happens. Nothing strange happened.. so i came back to my acc and Post a pinned tweet saying something like I won t believe anymore in what happened but I won t regret the time spent.
Yes that was YOU KNOW WHEN? 3 september 2016 the day of V's grandma's death... Afterwards he said the date on a concert when he cryed a lot I think y'all know ab it.
Same day rm posts a song ab a friend that he has lost. I went on playing like I don't get it in order to escape of this mindset. But yeah you know that I told them I don t like that V sign on the eye cause it s iluminatti before. Something made me comeback to them and tell them I was sorry to act like this but my reason was to make them hate me and forget me (also in that day I broke up with Rm).
One day afterwards.. 4 of the members posted themselves doing the V sign and Suga made one in the V live that day. So I was very angry and told them they are lying to their fans cause they do this signs in order to influence them to love them, that armys are just puppets and they play with their souls. (You never walk alone talk ab rm acknowledging the fact he is responsable for many people and the sin he did(and then "but u still hold my hand")). The second day at the concert Jimin was wearing a big cross and I told him(believing he tryed to make up with me) that christians wear they crossed under the shirt bc they don t want to brag ab it. They got the cross a lot smaller and it is used to protect them (Spring day V's bracelt have a small crass highlighted on the camera).
Also afterwards That reply from Inuyasha ( my fav anime I mentioned to them) that Jin said in a tweet with Jimin in there.
After Jimin s birthday I decided to go forever as I couldn t answer to my questions and told them shits like " I know u all are in love with me but I can t chose bc I don t know u"," I don t feel confortable dating on a screen" " i was pretending to be happy and posted a lot if funny things by now only to make u happy( actually to make them like me so that they can follow my words)" and that they don't truly love me as they couldn't understand these. I deactivated my acc then and all of them started doing the opposite I told them in a very obvious way( the bst era got the most times when they do the v sign and also that overperverted things they were saying like jimin telling to v he got a big D and them being very gay (suga with jhope by octomber 2016 were never even shipped that hard but lol how all of sudden Suga gives him a rose and screams J HOPEEEE like a retarded.) This made me think they were doing it on purpose so that I can hate them and forget them bc they felt sorry for what they did to me. Also this is the time V starts doing the V sign and in spring 2017 V starts liking taking photos.
In february spring day talks ab a friend they lost ( the sunrise that looks like a sunset, converses, aesthetics and childlike and pure concept seem connected to the personality I had then and the photos I send to them) also The Omelas sign symbolises a person that sacrifice itself to make the others happy. In ynwa song suga talks ab God for the first time since debut and they keep repeating " only if you and I could be together" and " you never walk alone".
In the bts festa in 2017 Suga starts the video with the words "We hope we made u happy" then all make the praying sign to make a wish.
But even so I do believe they didn't follow my acc ( that it still exists bc I took care of it) but the agency. Anyway the story goes on for me as I kept hurting. This strange things might be part of the Devil's plan to keep me in the fandom but it truly distroyed me.
What you are saying if that's true I can assume you were somehow connected to staff or anyone related to them from any platform unknowingly. Is this true??? Did you ever feel like that? If so then social media managers just decided to conduct a mind gamepley since they learned you emotionally vulnerable. I don't think so you are the only one who have faced all this; Idk why some of their social media contents never made any sense to me.