I feel you more than you think. My homeland could never discard it's pagan beliefs in favor of Christianity, so they got them intermingled and boom, you have Orthodoxy. I study gnostic texts and even alchemy and de-programmed myself completely from these delusions. Frankly, I believe that abrahamic texts written by men were heavily meant to keep women in line among other things. The elites (keep in mind that not all of them are Luciferianists) have all the true, ancient knowledge but don't want to share it with the rest of us, and imo, these manufactured religions keep us away from the real divination. Unlocking the secrets of the Universe is an ancient craft and is considered science (physics, chemistry, maths, astronomy are all highly based on that) and that is the reason why I don't really like equalizing the occult to some sinister practices, which are only a part of it since it diminishes it's true purpose. Exactly, so many ancient civilizations foresaw Jesus's coming on Earth, even ancient, prominent philosophers had hinted on that. God lies in our souls, not solely in churches etc and each person has a special relationship with him that doesn't fit in a dogmatic box. Unfortunately many people seem to have forgotten the main essence and stick to the religious, ritualistic lifestyle.
why would you want ancient knowledge and what use is it to you? what use is all of that to us, in the long run? what do you mean that you think it was to 'keep women in line'? as in, you disagree with the idea that God made women to be the partners and helpers of men? also, i apologise for how i type. language, and social skills, are to play here. but i am curious!
i see nothing but the people seeking the water in their dreams or drugged up evenings to write down the riddles in hopes of changing the future, making the 'new', 'discovering' whatever. evil, nothing more. its the same sentiment i feel being on a computer or phone. sure, its allowed for a lot, for 'progress'. but... its all so twisted, useless. look at us now. what secrets could we find that will do anything for us? unless you are one who believes in space travel and that another planet is needed for our survival as a 'race', i believe we are in the times described. i believe, just as the cells in blood remain there, that God made everything to have its place - im sure you can infer my meaning.
we'd all be a lot happier if we had a piece of land, consistent weather, good animals, and a family - but we dont. this world is made for you, or it isnt. youre either someone who sees the potential to create in this empty unchanging place, or youre someone who recognises this is not where we should be at all. youre right - religion is for people who need to wear signs, have titles, have communities, a team..
i was told i could not ever pray to God because you must ' go through the priest of the church ' which im sure you were also told.
god has made me content. there is nothing new under the sun. the knowledge of good and evil has done nothing but wrought turmoil. i see no future, and for that, i am thankful to God that i have such faith in his plan.