@Red Sky at Morning I see you are still apparently serving under compulsion and counting the benefits,
rather than
standing on your own feet and choosing to be free, as the context of that particular chapter of Joshua clearly instructs, which shows that you don't really understand what you have just quoted.
It's a conversation as old as the world, FHM...
Listen to the Serpent and sit in judgement of God and his revelation of himself or "slavishly" obey your maker. You can stack up role models and stories that cast rebellion in a heroic light, embrace the light and shade of human nature if you want, but I'm with Joshua here.
And also with the rather Mule-like determination of a character I admired by C.S Lewis as a child...
"One word, Ma'am,' he said... 'One word. All you've been saying is quite right, I shouldn't wonder. I'm a chap who always liked to know the worst and then put the best face I can on it. So I won't deny any of what you said. But there's one thing more to be said, even so. Suppose we
have only dreamed, or made up, all those things--trees and grass and sun and moon and stars and Aslan himself. Suppose we have. Then all I can say is that, in that case, the made-up things seem a good deal more important than the real ones. Suppose this black pit of a kingdom of yours
is the only world. Well, it strikes me as a pretty poor one. And that's a funny thing, when you come to think of it. We're just babies making up a game, if you're right. But four babies playing a game can make a play-world which licks your real world hollow. That's why I'm going to stand by the play-world. I'm on Aslan's side even if there isn't any Aslan to lead it. I'm going to live as like a Narnian as I can even if there isn't any Narnia. So, thanking you kindly for our supper, if these two gentlemen and the young lady are ready, we're leaving your court at once and setting out in the dark to spend our lives looking for Overland. Not that our lives will be very long, I should think; but that's small loss if the world's as dull a place as you say."
Mic drop.