redqueen
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don't think I'm special or Ya have to be special,
it's just I've lost too many Peoples in the last 3yrs
that I held onto my hurt/anger and regret it all so much
my biggest loss
my oldest daughter dec 10 2019
I'm still not done grieving and dont think I ever will be
because these last 3 yrs have been so surreal in a lot
of ways it's been harder to grieve
doesn't Help I'm still fighting to get cause of death with
her,think that's contributing
I wasn't made aware that she was in hospital on life
support for almost 2 weeks until it was time to pull
the plug and my estranged family that she was with
which is one of my hurt/anger I held at the time
wasn't able to just do it or I probably wouldn't have
Known until I checked the obituaries and she was posted
I missed out on time I could've had just Loving her
and I regret that every single day and promised myself
I wouldn't do that ever again
We lost my mother in law a yr ago on the 1st
We were all being cold towards each other because she
got dexav and We were constantly telling/showing her and
trying to show her what Truth We Knew
she didn't listen and We'd fight about it literally yelling and screaming
she changed after the xav a Loving,caring woman turned easily irritated,cold,judgemental
however stepping back and looking from outside the box
she could say the exact same thing about how We were being
because I'm sure that's how the dexav are perceiving Us trying to
forcefully scream the Truth at them and make them accept it
because We want everyone to wake up
We perceive it as trying to Help them and Our World
again time We all could've spent Loving her for the little time
We Knew she had since We Know the Truth
instead We'd spent a lot of Our time arguing over something
that that she couldn't do anything about since at the time
she was up to date for them
no one wants to admit that they been lied to and took something
that's injured them and has shortened their lives to 3-5yrs
if Your lucky Ya may get a little longer but chances are no
We here should Know better than most how hard waking up to
all the lies and atrocities of tptb
all Ya have to do is empathize with those waking up to the lies
after something that's caused all the injuries and death,to them
in a lot of cases
think We would take all the others that didn't touch Our lives in that
way like 9/11,blue beam,no democracy,divide and conquer agenda,
earths shape,nrec etc...
empathy can be a Learned emotion and becomes one of the biggest
tools to have as an emotion,it really is so much better than sympathy
as Ya can feel all the emotions after awhile be it anger,jealousy etc..
which Truely Helps in reading Peoples
sympathy Ya See/Hear something sad that's all Ya Know is it's sad
as Ya cannot take Your own life experiences and See a time when
Ya felt that same or similar emotion and feel the emotion of another Persons,with empathy Ya can even with language barriers
I'll stop now
this no ranting rule/thing I'm trying to do is very hard
I'm so sorry Y'all I am trying but as Y'all can See
I'm not good at this
it's just I've lost too many Peoples in the last 3yrs
that I held onto my hurt/anger and regret it all so much
my biggest loss
my oldest daughter dec 10 2019
I'm still not done grieving and dont think I ever will be
because these last 3 yrs have been so surreal in a lot
of ways it's been harder to grieve
doesn't Help I'm still fighting to get cause of death with
her,think that's contributing
I wasn't made aware that she was in hospital on life
support for almost 2 weeks until it was time to pull
the plug and my estranged family that she was with
which is one of my hurt/anger I held at the time
wasn't able to just do it or I probably wouldn't have
Known until I checked the obituaries and she was posted
I missed out on time I could've had just Loving her
and I regret that every single day and promised myself
I wouldn't do that ever again
We lost my mother in law a yr ago on the 1st
We were all being cold towards each other because she
got dexav and We were constantly telling/showing her and
trying to show her what Truth We Knew
she didn't listen and We'd fight about it literally yelling and screaming
she changed after the xav a Loving,caring woman turned easily irritated,cold,judgemental
however stepping back and looking from outside the box
she could say the exact same thing about how We were being
because I'm sure that's how the dexav are perceiving Us trying to
forcefully scream the Truth at them and make them accept it
because We want everyone to wake up
We perceive it as trying to Help them and Our World
again time We all could've spent Loving her for the little time
We Knew she had since We Know the Truth
instead We'd spent a lot of Our time arguing over something
that that she couldn't do anything about since at the time
she was up to date for them
no one wants to admit that they been lied to and took something
that's injured them and has shortened their lives to 3-5yrs
if Your lucky Ya may get a little longer but chances are no
We here should Know better than most how hard waking up to
all the lies and atrocities of tptb
all Ya have to do is empathize with those waking up to the lies
after something that's caused all the injuries and death,to them
in a lot of cases
think We would take all the others that didn't touch Our lives in that
way like 9/11,blue beam,no democracy,divide and conquer agenda,
earths shape,nrec etc...
empathy can be a Learned emotion and becomes one of the biggest
tools to have as an emotion,it really is so much better than sympathy
as Ya can feel all the emotions after awhile be it anger,jealousy etc..
which Truely Helps in reading Peoples
sympathy Ya See/Hear something sad that's all Ya Know is it's sad
as Ya cannot take Your own life experiences and See a time when
Ya felt that same or similar emotion and feel the emotion of another Persons,with empathy Ya can even with language barriers
I'll stop now
this no ranting rule/thing I'm trying to do is very hard
I'm so sorry Y'all I am trying but as Y'all can See
I'm not good at this
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