I also want to break free from them like you, but I often find myself hate watching them.
It's like i'm waiting for something to happen, for example that they split up or something bad comes out from a member that the media can't hide, which also leads to a separation like with bigbang. Or maybe a sacrifice happens like with shinee. And don't get me wrong I don't wish death upon anybody. Im not watching them because I like them. I'm on the contrary, I tend to look for symbols and weird behavior.
I'm too invested but I don't want to be. I became a fan of them at the end of 2016. and oh my god I was watching endless videos of them I was crazy.
I think I literally watched every interview like just everything. But then after a year I got really miserable and depressed. And when I watched their videos, my mood got better. But after a while I realized that this is not ok. Instead of spending more time with my family and friends, I preferred to withdraw and watch their videos or wait like a crazy person for a mv to be uploaded.
Fortunately, I didn't waste any money on them. I never bought merch, tickets or anything.
Then I slowly started to wake up about what is really happening in the world. I started watching conspiracy Theories about 9 11 and the JFK assassination and I was thinking hey why are these videos being deleted and people talking about it being silenced. There is clearly something to it about these theories. And then I started researching about Jeffree Epstein and Hillary, the Bush's, child trafficking and so on ... you know the deal.
And my mind was just blown. Then I was getting into the food industry and Kosmetik and beauty products like how these people slowly poison us. And then i felt like .. can u trust anybody in this world. I was just shocked. Then I found Jd on YouTube and her videos about bts and after watching them I was disgusted with bts.
She recommended this forum and I was lurking here for so long. I learned about symbols and a lot more and couldn't unsee it anymore. I literally deleted Instagram and Twitter not just so that I no longer get distracted by bts also because Twitter army is so toxic well even twitter itself. I just wanted to break free from bts. And Instagram is setting unrealistic beauty standards and is just so toxic. I also deleted my vlive and Weverse of course. But I still find myself sometimes searching for them on YouTube. It's like I'm waiting for something to happen. If someone has tips for me how I can finally break free from them. I know it sounds so stupid. Maybe I just need a cleanse for like 1 month and then I don't think about it anymore. I don't know.
And sorry for my English I'm German. But this is a really good way for me to practice my English and better it.
It is as if you speak to me from the soul.
I just wrote and posted a long text and then I saw your message that you had posted 20 minutes before. You are right the only way is God. I'm Christian myself, but I've never really dealt with it and never really cared. But in the last few weeks I have seen a lot of videos and podcasts from Jordan Peterson where he talks about God and his faith and I found his words just beautiful. Im not kidding you, yesterday I ordered the Bible and I'm already looking forward to reading it. Sad that I didn't got into it sooner. Better now then never.
But in the times we are in now with so much evil in the world I think it is important. I have prayed a lot lately and I have to say that it has really helped and comforted me.
In the reply above you can see what I am struggling with. But I am curious how you breaked free from bts. Like what was the process for you.
First of all I’m so happy to hear that you’ve found God. That is absolutely amazing. It is truly the greatest gift and I wish you the best on your faith journey
if you have any questions about that too you can ask me!
But I’m also sorry to hear that you’re struggling as well.
The process wasn’t linear, there were a lot of ups and downs as generic as it sounds. I’ll try and map it out the best way I can.
Firstly, what I know I needed to do and what God told me to do is to stop watching them. Completely.
Very soon after I got into BTS I found out how demonic they actually are and throughout my whole life I’ve been aware and educated in what truly goes on behind the scenes in our entertainment industry, government etc…
So it’s like I always knew they were apart of it, I mean they’re the biggest boy band in the world how could they not be lol.
So afterwards, I was still obsessed and continued to do what you’re doing doing now. I was basically “hate watching them”. Like I was analyzing everything they were doing to find clues and to see if something drastic was gonna take place and I was more disgusted than anything but i honestly still liked a lot of their content too so I still wanted to watch them regardless.
But being obsessed with hating on them or being obsessed with loving them, is still an obsession with THEM.
There were times where I genuinely didn’t wanna watch them anymore and there were times where I did but regardless of what I felt I just constantly felt this urge and pull to watch them all the time.
Now at this time i was aware of my obsession and that it was wrong and that I needed deliverance from it.
So while trying to stop, you need to PRAY. I cannot stress this enough. Prayer is so powerful.
Pray to God to give you the strength to stop, to heal you, deliver you, to break these chains over your life. But take it one day at a time, and don’t be too hard on yourself.
So the first step for me and like I said what God was telling me to do was to stop watching them and then to stop listening to their music. The easiest one personally for me was to stop listening to their music, like I said before their music is dangerous, God only knows what demonic spirits are behind it.
And then it was to get rid of all my merch which was seriously painfully difficult for me to do but we can get into that another time lol. I’m happy to hear you never spent any money on them.
Like it was over the course of a year that I was having this battle
felt like I was being tugged in two different directions, I know the enemy wanted to keep me in bondage and God wanted to free me from it.
God was trying to do everything in his power to get me away from them lol, like for example even having pictures of them on my phone case he was telling me to get rid of and all this stuff so piece by piece slowly by obeying these things God was telling me to do it was getting rid of the obsession more and more.
Also if you have anything on your phone about them, videos, pictures etc, I’d encourage you to get rid of them.
Whether it’s liking them or hating them, having them take up such a huge part of your life isn’t normal. “Army” has normalized being obsessed with them when it isn’t normal at ALL.
like they shouldn’t be a thought in your mind at all. They’re filling the place that God should be filling in peoples lives.
So over the course of the year of trying to break free from them, in the process, there was a lot of trying to stop watching them mainly, purging my life of them, deleting apps, getting rid of anything that had to do with them. But it was painfully tough. So much crying and being depressed over it. And like I mentioned before I was mainly obsessed with tae, like I didn’t even wanna date or look at anyone in real life because of this. And I would be heartbroken thinking of him dating someone. And that’s just the tip of the iceberg lol. Like it was really intense. And again, not normal. So I struggled a lot breaking this attachment I had to him.
Again, I’m sorry if this post is a little bit of a mess, just a lot happened during that time so it’s a lot to try and remember ahahhah.
But my advice to you is to keep praying, keep pressing into God, and he will give you the strength and the instruction to get away and stay away from them.
Stay strong my love and for anyone reading
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