Guys, i have something to tell you...
I know i just came back here after a long time, but i've already realized that i was just not made for this...i can't do that anymore...
Please, don't judge me but...i just can't do it anymore. I can't make these theories, i can't analyze what kind of sick shit is in their music and how they are as people, because it's driving me insane. Literally. I don't even know what to think, feel and do anymore, i'm not able to tell between good and bad opinions anymore. I've learned that bts are evil and wicked and that i should avoid them, but i also learned that they are victims themselves, and i always end up overthinking everything and deciding if i should just leave them or not, but it seems like i just can't forget about them and get over it. I literally see them EVERYWHERE, every single song or picture of them is like a punch in my face and it breaks my heart. I hate the fact that i'm so sensitive about this. I hope you understand that i was truly happy when i was into them, but i'm not saying that they 'saved my life' and stuff. It was not only about them. All my closest friends got into bts along with me, and we would spend A LOT of time together, laughing, talking, listening to their music and daydreaming. It's about that. Every song of them, every picture of them, even some objects in my room (that i'm planning to hide in a box under my table) are very nostalgic for me, and it hurts to see them now because they carry very good memories...that's why i don't want to hate bts and never make insulting comments about them, i'm just too weak to do that...and as i said, i just don't think it's right...besides, all of my memories are ruined now, and that hurts as well. And i will say something that i wanted to say a long time ago...i kinda feel like being on this thread and making theories is an addiction...and it's not healthy at all...let's be honest, some information are disturbing, but we still keep reading them and making disturbing theories every day...guys, trust me, that is not okay...for those of you who are religious, you probably know that the devil loves to be talked about, and he is trying his best to make you feel nervous, angry, aggressive, shocked...so why would you talk about him and his wicked plans everyday? It's not worth it...instead, think about God and His work, it's much better than those disturbing theories, and i'm pretty sure that He doesn't want us to think about the devil and his work all the time...i mean, it's good to know the truth. But there is a difference between seeking the truth and obsessing over it. You don't have to know everything. It's enough to know that something is bad to avoid it right? You don't have to know all the details. Besides, some information could be false so...this can lead us to be unfair or judge too fast, which is also not ok. I'm just trying to warn you...
Anyway, that was my last post on this thread, i'm really leaving now...it's too much for me, i hope you understand...thank you everyone for reading my posts, i'm pretty sure that i was annoying sometimes but i was just being honest...and thank you for being nice to me. I will miss you all and i'm sure that one day, i'll come back and check how are you guys doing
I hope you all stay happy and healthy, and may God bless you <3
Goodbye!