Hi everyone!
I posted a comment some months ago in the "kpop satanic/illuminati influence". In that comment I asked for some suggestions about what to do regarding this kind of music I was becoming interested in, and I never had the chance to thank who answered me properly. I'm sorry about it.
Now that I've logged in after all this time, I discovered the main topic has been split into another topic - this one- that is specifically about BTS. So I'm here now because it's always about them I'd like to talk about.
My history until now is: after that previous comment of mine, I tried to detach myself from them, eventually failing after some days because, as some of you said, I thought it's important to recognize the propaganda behind these songs for not being influenced by it. Since I'm Christian I thought to be exempt from that influence, and so I could just focus on their appealing songs without worrying too much.
But some weeks ago, as you noticed, the big scandal of their pre-comeback, the BTS glitch party, came out... and let me tell you, it scared the hell out of me. I browsed some Twitter tags about this thing, and I learned about the glitches in their videos that apparently weren't there before, the strange Instagram profiles and subs that contained some codes that, if translated, are about creepy and evil things, songs that are reversed, etc... It was in that moment that I immediately quit listening to them, and even now I'm having thoughts about it. I'm afraid they've poisoned me in some ways, because right now I'm almost suffering from this detachment. I mean, I think it's quite normal because it has been an abrupt thing; it's as if you quit smoking without the right and slow pace you'd need.
I admit I've grown fond of the 7 of them especially for their personality. I followed them not really because of their music, but because of them as humans. I loved to watch their funny and general videos about their life aside music. Now that I detached myself from them, I admit I really miss browsing about their news/interviews/reality shows, 'cause I enjoyed their entertaining side.
I know what's behind them, but I'm torn between the affection for them and their agenda. Sometimes I wonder: "Am I exaggerating? Am I doing the right thing, totally leaving them and suffering like that because of a creepy trend that I don't even know if it's 100% true?"
I see that some of you, even if you leave comments in these discussions, still have avatars of BTS members, probably meaning that you still "like" them(?). And because of that, I'd like to ask you: even after these creepy informations that are being exposed, do you still follow them? Do you still listen to their music? If yes, then I'm being too "afraid" of them(?).
I don't know what to do. I'm not listening to them right now, but I always feel that slight nostalgia that's making me mad. I don't really think it's their fault for, like, hypnotising me or something like that; the fact is that I don't have a good replacement of them. Some months ago I was into anime/manga; now I admit these things don't have my attention like before. Something about it vanished, I think because I'm growing up and tastes can't always stay the same. I like to do many other things like reading, writing... but in my life there has always been a particular thing that I tended to dream about the most, that would make me fangirl more. Months ago, for example, "that thing" was a specific anime; in this period it was BTS, 'cause I started to be interested in "real people's lives" and singers... and I simply got to know them; and now I find more "entertaining" to follow them rather than any other thing. Not because it's them, not because they're wizards; it's simply because I started listening to kpop, I got to know them, they were fun and interesting people and I grow interested.
But the problem is: unfortunately that world is corrupted and you can't be sure if, following them, you're doing the right thing or not. It's a thing that constantly makes me feel worried and rather nervous, and I can't let go of that thought because I keep repeating myself "Why can't I enjoy some artists in peace? Why do they always have to be involved in some creepy things?".
That's why I'm accepting any of your suggestions. I'm- again - reaching out to you for some answers that will maybe help me understand what's better to do.
Have you ever felt like that? What did you do, then? Do you still listen to them? How seriously do you think I should take these things that happen around them? How should I behave? Is it normal that I'm missing them like that? Is it ok to suffer and be scared like that or did I do the wrong choice and I shouldn't "hurt" myself like this?
I'm human, I'm naive, I know. God knows. I don't know what's the right thing to do anymore. That's why I keep praying, searching for some answers. But I also know you are very good people, who are indirectly helping me a lot; so I thought it'd be ok if I spoke about this problem with you, hoping not to bother you in any way.
Thanks in advance for any answer. You'd help me a lot!
