The churchgoers here think that sins which lead to death and even premeditated sins which lead to death do not jeopardize their salvation... only their rewards. They think they go to Heaven for sure no matter what... but they might not get a reward there.I agree, and we can all agree that we go through this process constantly, but because we are in this process it doesn't mean we are now doomed to hell because we are still part of the process. Like with your sins it took some time to realize that God doesn't tolerate it. With all of us it sometimes takes time to realize this.
You have gone through it and God showed you He expected more. As we grow in Him He keeps on refining us, people here admit they are still in the process - that doesn't mean they reject this process or are not striving to become more like Jesus, it just takes time because we are all human.
It's this kind of thinking which is why Jesus never sent me to church.