The faith of Abraham and the faith of Thomas?
God wants us to have the faith of Abraham - “believe and you will see”.
God WILL meet us if we have the faith of Thomas - “if I see I will believe”
The truly amazing thing is that God will meet us where we are at. If you want to God to reveal himself to you but find yourself in a “Thomas” position, be honest with God and ask him to make himself known to you in a way that would convince you.
For Thomas it was seeing the wounds of the cross and putting his fingers in them. For you,
@DevaWolf it is a private conversation between you and the maker you presently doubt. I will be praying for you.