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That makes more sense to me. It kind of sounds like you are describing the biblical version of Karma. Like using your faith to guide you through the invisible forces of the world. I think we talked about that before too. To me it seems like there are bigger things going on. Like if we are being judged, we are being judged right now. And some people never learn that lesson. Maybe it's a lack of faith or putting faith in the wrong things.Well yes, we did. We had a whole conversation about that To Catch a Predator show, and I basically repeated myself with additional comments on the subject of repentance.
I have always had this perspective towards repentance. It is very much a spiritual experience that begins with confession.
However, I was 17 when I was saved, so this has probably evolved a little bit since then, but the concept is the same. Repentance is a change in the direction of your life. It is more of a discipline that people blur with the subject of salvation. So salvation comes by repentance and accepting Christ. However, repentance is not a single moment, but a lifelong discipline.
For example, a few years ago, I was struggling really bad because I was abused terribly as a child. I have complex PTSD, which was exacerbated at the time. I became very angry about this. I was in my mid-20's and believed that there were things I knew. There were things I was right about. I thought I was right about why I was suffering because I had already read the Bible several times, been a Christian for several years, so I was right. I thought God was punishing me because I thought I knew for sure that I wasn't suffering because of the abuse I experienced as a child and nothing could change my mind about this.
It was very cyclical. Something happened that would be difficult to handle. I would get mad. I would try to talk myself out of this by rationalizing that it was normal to be mad if you had experienced what I had, and then I would wonder when God would make the pain stop.
Eventually, whether it stopped or not, I would have to keep going. I would keep going and then get in this pattern of thinking over and over again.
So, I started using a Christian workbook for victims of abuse. I learned many things about repentance from this experience.
In particular, the subject of repenting of arrogance came up. When you are suffering from something you didn't deserve, it clouds your judgment. It is hard to know whether you have something to repent of or whether you're blaming yourself for something someone else did.
So when arrogance came up I sat and thought about this. What does it mean to be arrogant if you are a victim of abuse and I realized my anger came from arrogance, but I have found that repenting of arrogance is not the same process as repenting for something you did once, like steal a candy bar in the store. To repent of stealing is something that can be put behind you. Arrogance is constantly in your face and when you begin to repent of this, it is more like you just look at it the same way you would look at a vase full of flowers; or, maybe it is more like looking at a zoo animal wondering what they will do if you look at them long enough.
Repenting of arrogance was more like re-learning a new alphabet. I just kept saying that anger demonstrates this sort of arrogance I have even though I am a victim of severe abuse over and over again the same way you would say the ABC's over and over again before learning to spell.
Then, there was another question in the chapter on repentance that was kind of like having cold water dumped on your head that snapped me out of this coma. The question was, "what does repentance look like in this situation." I think this goes along with what you are saying about taking actions to make the world a better place. It is like asking this question, what does it look like to repent in this situation because we are all lazy at times. We all lie at various times too. We neglect to stand up for other people. So what does repentance look like in practice?
The point is that repentance as a discipline looks different depending on the person. If the coffee you ordered was cold, and this usually made you feel like yelling at your barista, repentance might be politely asking for a new cup of coffee.
If there is someone you work with who is being picked on by some of your coworkers and you are usually quiet about this and let it happen. Repentance would be eating lunch with this person or defending them.
The point of this story is also to show that learning repentance is not about telling other people they need to repent. It's about sharing your own story of how you repented and what you repented of. The Bible teaches that repentance is a self-discipline, not a permission to discipline others.
So it isn't about thinking that God will just make everything work out in the end. It is about knowing that there is no time frame to accept salvation. The offer doesn't expire at 50. The offer doesn't expire at all until we expire. So whether or not someone does anything meaningful with their salvation that would change the world we live in today, they will still be able to accept salvation and this is meaningful.
However, the Bible can also be used to do more than making a strong theological argument. It should be used to create things that help change the world. There are many who are good examples of this, but there are also many who want to go through life in easy mode. Either way, there is nothing lazy about repentance.
I remember feeling bad for picking on this one kid at church. And taking Jesus into my heart to cure my asthma. But this definitely wasn't a place where justice was being practiced. So it goes back to what I said before about religion being a great learning tool. Because no religion has a monopoly on justice. I mock my Christian upbringing all the time, and Jesus doesn't cry about it. How could he blame me? I could even argue I'm the one fighting for Jesus in that case.
And Jesus doesn't need anyone to fight for him. That's the whole point of the debate about Monotheism. People fighting over their invisible Gods. Fighting over their dreams, and fantasies. I think that blind faith is more dangerous than blasphemy. 100 times out of 100