Lots of people have tried to have the moonchild. There isn't a shred of evidence for the vile things you accuse a dead man of. Your views on magick and the occult are based of fear and fundamentalist monotheistic propaganda.
The evidence is in Crowley's books and research papers. He records several experiments involving human sacrifice. He created Thelema, so any true follower of his - including Jack Parsons - will have read those books and practiced the magick rituals. Jack Parsons was not a good man. You can see what sort of person someone is by the friends they keep, and the groups they're part of.
Regarding spelling: Magic refers to witchcraft and magick (with a k) refers to sex magic.
The Biblical God is not a slave god. He gave all his creations, including humans and angels, free will. Lucifer chose to rebel against the Creator because he thought he would make a better god and ruler. When Lucifer committed the original sin (Pride) and rebelled and fell from grace, he was consumed by evil. In bitterness, he decided to corrupt God's favorite creation: humans. Lucifer became the father of Lies and Deception (these are the tools he always uses to gain more followers). The humans in the Garden of Eden believed Lucifer's lies and deception and fell into temptation, acting against God and the Moral Law.
Humans were meant to be the royal priesthood that watched over the land and animals. By sinning, humans fell into a corrupted and fallen state. Because they sinned, they failed at their job as caretakers and allowed corruption, sin, evil, suffering, disease and death to enter the world and effect everything in it. As the Bible tells us, the wages for sin is death. The reason Jesus Christ died on the cross was to take all that sin upon himself, and pay the price for his followers. In doing so, he gave us a way to conquer death and have eternal life.
Hell is the absence of God.
2 Timothy 1:7: For God hath not given us the spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.
Depression, despair, anger, hatred are all from the devil. That is what people who go to Hell will be left with.
Lucifer/Satan is the Prince of the World, father of lies, and true slave god. Look at Hollywood. He forces all his slaves to make blood oaths with him and swear to have their throats slit if they ever betray their Oath of Secrecy. His servants are forced to do all manner of unspeakable things, inviting demons into their bodies, hurting others, committing heinous acts of sin so that they feel they can never be forgiven. Lucifer deceives his followers into thinking redemption is impossible for them because they've done such horrible things. It's how he tries to ensure his followers never betray him. After all, they might as well enjoy wealth and power during their short time on earth if there's no chance of forgiveness for their sins. But once again this is a lie. Lucifer is the father of lies.
The truth is that anyone can be forgiven if they genuinely repent, at which time their soul and mind will be cleansed and they will naturally and genuinely turn away from sin.
I know it's hard to see all the pain and suffering in the world, and wonder why God wouldn't step in. But he did step in, several times in the past, and every time he delivered his people from evil they would immediately start sinning and worshipping false idols again. After God flooded the world (because it had become so depraved), he made a covenant with humanity and a promise to never flood the earth again. That covenant took the form of a rainbow.
This is why the LGBT use the rainbow as their flag, to mock God and remind him of his promise to never flood the earth no matter how depraved it gets. This is the true reason why the movement uses the name Pride - because Pride was the original sin. It was the sin that made Lucifer, Adam and Eve all sin against God.
Jesus Christ will come again to deliver us from our suffering, but until that time comes we must continue to live in this fallen world. Part of the reason there is so much pain, death, and abuse in the world is BECAUSE God gave us free will, and some humans use that free will to torment and harm others. As we move further from the Moral Law, the pain and suffering will increase.
Now, take a step back and remember that Lucifer rebelled because he wanted to take God's place as creator. Lucifer's goal is to usurp the Creator and become God, but everything he does is a cheap imitation of God. Magic is Lucifer's cheap knock-off version of power, control, creation and influence that poorly imitates God's genuine powers of creation. Magicians, occultists, Luciferans spend their lives trying to understand and deconstruct God's creation down to the last molecule, in hopes that they can acquire power and control the universe around them. That is why so many study astronomy, numerology, arithmancy. It's all an ultimately futile attempt to break down God's creation into elements that they can understand and control. This is because Lucifer and his followers are too Prideful to trust in their own divine Creator.
I hope some of this helps you, and I pray that one day you can reconcile with God.