Good on you. I came off 20 years of antidepressants bit by bit over about 3 years,gradually reducing and working on diet, excercise, emotional problems, breathing etc.....my doctor warned me that many people subsequently crash, but after 6 months free I thought I was all good and had things worked out.....then a number of things went slightly wrong in life all at once - not even badly wrong, just smallish things, and BAM. Within two days I was so anxious and suicidal it scared the ...... out of me and after a few days of doing everything i could to sort myself out, I decided to go back on the pills. I just couldn't take it. I'd forgotten how absolutely horrific it felt to be so overwhelmed I wanted to die. So now I'm reducing the pills again to the lowest level where I can cope, and I don't think I'll ever bother to try and go drug free again - even though that's what I would prefer.
I absolutely respect you for getting off the pills and working through your issues - that is MASSIVE , and I really hope you can stay that way forever!