Pornstar got bullied and then suicided for not partaking in sex with gay sex actor

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Spoiler alert: This story is a preview of “The Last Days of August,” a new “Serial”-style podcast from journalist Jon Ronson that will be released on Audible on Jan. 3.

On Dec. 5, 2017, the body of 23-year-old porn superstar August Ames was found in a park near Los Angeles. The cause of death was asphyxiation from hanging.

A brutally simple narrative quickly formed around her suicide. Cyberbullies, the story went, drove Ames to kill herself after she tweeted about not wanting to work with “crossover” male porn stars who also made gay porn.

“The Last Days of August” rewrites the story of Ames’ death. Ronson’s broader version of events shifts the blame away from cyberbullies and instead places the tweetstorm and Ames’ death within a longer timeline of disturbing events. At the same time, it contextualizes porn stars Jessica Drake and Jaxton Wheeler, two of the major villains from the original narrative, while discovering new actors and events which helped push Ames over the edge.


In one particularly harrowing portion of the seven-episode podcast series, Ronson and his producer Lina Misitzis dissect Ames’ final porn scene, which was shot weeks before the flurry of tweets and has never been released to the public. They make the argument that her last scene was the real trigger for her suicide.

“When you think about it, what we were watching in that moment was the moment that she decided to die. That’s what we were watching and it’s awful,” Ronson told The Post. “That was the truth of it, that was the moment when she reached the point of no return. The Twitter bullying may have been the icing on the cake, as some people described it.”

Ronson and Misitzis felt comfortable coming to this conclusion because they were able to get access to text messages Ames sent to a friend about the scene.

The podcasters also took a deep dive into Ames’ (real name Mercedes Grabowski) troubled childhood, cross-examined her husband, porn producer Kevin Moore, and broke down the decline in Ames’ mental health during the final days of her life.

Before any of that, however, Ronson and Misitzis establish their bona fides by taking an ax to two of the main pillars of the cyberbullying storyline.

That story, which was pushed by Ames’ husband, Moore, began on Dec. 3 when Ames tweeted: “Whichever (lady) performer is replacing me tomorrow for @EroticaXNews, you’re shooting with a guy who has shot gay porn, just to let cha know. BS is all I can say… Do agents really not care about who they’re representing?… I do my homework for my body.”

Trying to clarify her position, she later added: “NOT homophobic. Most girls don’t shoot with guys who have shot gay porn, for safety. That’s just how it is with me. I’m not putting my body at risk, i don’t know what they do in their private lives.”

The following day, Drake, a longtime and respected porn star who has accused Donald Trump of sexual misconduct, took to Twitter to offer a rebuke of Ames’ position.

Enlarge ImageJessica Drake at the 2018 Adult Video News Awards.Getty Images
“Performers, by all means, f–k who you want to f–k…but if you’re eliminating folks based on the fact they they (sic) may have done gay or crossover work, your logic is seriously flawed. reality is, WE DON’T KNOW who does what with whom when there are no cameras.”

In a manifesto published on Ames’ website six days after her death, Moore explicitly blamed his wife’s death on Drake and gay porn star Wheeler, who, on Dec. 5, tweeted: “@AugustAmesxxx the world is awaiting your apology or for you to swallow a cyanide pill. Either or we’ll take it.”

At the Adult Video News Awards — porn’s version of the Oscars — which were held on Jan. 27, 2018, Moore stood before the entire industry and declared, “Who you work with is up to you. It’s your body, it’s your choice. No agent, no producer, no company, and certainly not social media, decides what you do with your body.”

The audience thunderously applauded Moore for his speech and some of the assembled porn stars wore T-shirts in memory of Ames.

Awkwardly, Drake attended the AVNs and was in the audience when Moore made his speech.

Enlarge ImageKevin Moore speaks about his late wife, August Ames, at the 2018 Adult Video News Awards.Getty Images
Ronson, who wrote a book called “So You’ve Been Publicly Shamed,” on the early days of cyberbullying, dissects Moore’s version of events with the precision of a surgeon.

For example, Ronson points out that a close reading of Drake’s tweet reveals it to be relatively benign. Drake doesn’t condemn Ames or even call her out by name. Drake simply gives an alternative point of view on Ames’ health concerns.

Ronson also highlights the fact that Drake was not acting with ill intent and could not have known the effect her words may or may not have had on Ames. Drake issued a heartfelt apology nonetheless, three days after Ames’ death, and in a rare interview, tearfully revealed to Ronson that she, ironically, was now the subject of intense internet bullying.

Ronson’s reframing of Wheeler’s indefensible tweet is even simpler. Wheeler sent his appalling message telling Ames to “swallow a cyanide pill” in the early hours of Dec. 5. Ames’ final tweet, a simple “f–k y’all,” was sent on Dec. 4 and her body wasn’t found until Dec. 5. Wheeler’s tweet, Ronson figured out, was sent after Ames had already taken her own life.

“The Last Days of August” is full of details like these that Ronson and Misitzis dug up, which create a portrait of Ames that is harrowing, heartbreaking and inspiring all at the same time.

Despite surviving childhood sexual traumas, Ames moved to Los Angeles by herself and for all intents and purposes conquered porn. In her five-year career, she shot nearly 300 scenes and was nominated for Female Performer of the Year three times at the AVNs. She was also a fan favorite not only because of her pure natural beauty but because of her bubbly onscreen personality and exuberant sexuality. She was quite simply a joy to watch.

Enlarge ImageAmes at an adult industry expo in Las Vegas in 2014Zuma Press
At the end of the podcast series, Ronson and Misitzis laser in on Ames’ final scene because it was so clearly outside her upbeat comfort zone. Performing with 30-year-old Russian porn star Markus Dupree, who is known for his domineering style, Ames was pushed to her sexual limits and possibly beyond.

In text messages to a friend, Ronson and Misitzis found, Ames described Dupree going “full on War Machine.” This is a reference to Jon “War Machine” Koppenhaver, a professional fighter-turned-porn star who is serving a life sentence for beating his ex-girlfriend, porn star Christy Mack, to within an inch of her life.

Both Ronson and Misitzis told The Post that watching the scene was one of the hardest parts of the entire project, and in listening to Misitzis’ description of its contents, it is easy to understand why.

On more than one occasion in the footage, Markus forcefully repositions August, which visibly startles her,” Misitzis says in the final episode of the podcast. “She says ‘Whoa s–t!’ and at one point Markus picks up her pink thong, stretches it around her head, jerks her around by it, and then shoves it in her mouth.”

“At the end of her scene, August is interviewed by a crew member to establish consent for legal purposes. She’s staring straight into the camera, holding up her check for the day’s work, her makeup’s gone and her hair is pulled back, she looks resigned and emotional and hollow all at once. ‘Were you treated OK?’ she’s asked. And flatly, and quietly she says, ‘Yes.’ For the first time in this footage, all the camera is focused on is August’s face and she seems like she’s verging on tears.”

Six weeks later, Ames killed herself.


Markus Dupree celebrates after winning Male Performer of the Year at the 2018 AVNs.Getty Images
Around the same time, four other female porn stars lost their lives to drug overdoses or under mysterious circumstances.

Moore tried to provide a wake-up call for the industry at the 2018 AVNs. At the same award show, Dupree won Male Performer of the Year. In the past 12 months, he has shot well over 200 scenes and picked up nine nominations for this year’s AVNs. Once again, he is nominated for Male Performer of the Year.

The porn machine stops for no one. Consumers, Ronson told The Post, don’t care about the industry’s problems “because of their own shame about watching porn and not wanting to think about the life of the people in the porn business.”

“You don’t want to think of those people as a human, but it’s for your own reason, not theirs.”

The more people learn about the porn industry, the less sexy it becomes.

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So basically the left has taken it to the point where as in the days of Noah when people refused to engage in gay sex, they were threatened. I have no words for this.
 
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Its old and nothing new about them committing suicide, over dosing, becoming prostitutes etc. I think it was Honey Gold that either tried to commit suicide or checked herself into a mental institution but Asia Carrera, Jazmine Cashmere, and others left, turned Christian, and never returned. Doing porn gives people a sense of power, especially after molestation or sexual abuse, but it's fleeting and everything they do tends to be hollow and they keep themselves in a cycle that deteriorates them mentally, physically, and spiritually. Doesn't matter how many surgeries they undergo to remain relevant fans are perverts and addicts looking to get their fix and it doesn't take professionals having sex to do it.

I would imagine it's the same in Hollywood except the sex and prostitution are private. Though I wouldn't say it's an issue of the false left and right paradigms, that's just a distraction in itself, but rather a societal deterioration fueled by false equalities and social standards based on the ideas of progress and equality. She shouldn't have been lambasted for her choice but it was the result of a prior choice in choosing to literally be exposed as a porn star. Her suicide was more fueled by overall depression rather than social media abuse
 
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Its old and nothing new about them committing suicide, over dosing, becoming prostitutes etc. I think it was Honey Gold that either tried to commit suicide or checked herself into a mental institution but Asia Carrera, Jazmine Cashmere, and others left, turned Christian, and never returned. Doing porn gives people a sense of power, especially after molestation or sexual abuse, but it's fleeting and everything they do tends to be hollow and they keep themselves in a cycle that deteriorates them mentally, physically, and spiritually. Doesn't matter how many surgeries they undergo to remain relevant fans are perverts and addicts looking to get their fix and it doesn't take professionals having sex to do it.

I would imagine it's the same in Hollywood except the sex and prostitution are private. Though I wouldn't say it's an issue of the false left and right paradigms, that's just a distraction in itself, but rather a societal deterioration fueled by false equalities and social standards based on the ideas of progress and equality. She shouldn't have been lambasted for her choice but it was the result of a prior choice in choosing to literally be exposed as a porn star. Her suicide was more fueled by overall depression rather than social media abuse
Oh...Well I know nothing about the porn industry. Hearing that Asia Carrera went christian warms my heart though, I've heard her name before somewhere and apparently she was a big name within the industry so thats great! She finally found her path. <3
 

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Oh...Well I know nothing about the porn industry. Hearing that Asia Carrera went christian warms my heart though, I've heard her name before somewhere and apparently she was a big name within the industry so thats great! She finally found her path. <3
Mormon actually. She wanted to completely escape porn and Mormons don't allow it.

I think porn typically draws in individuals with traumas, cases of abuse, ignorance less so, and degeneracy in general. It's one thing to watch it but to actually think about the woman and how many times she's probably had to shoot the scene, if she's drugged, whether these male porn are abusing them, etc it makes it all way less sexy. We see the glamour but it's a depressing trade where you're only worth your assets and time is against you.

I've heard and read that it isn't uncommon for many stars to be prostitutes to elite despite being well off in film. Trump helps prove it with Stormy Daniels but it's all prostitution in the end aided by color of law and while I'm not mad at how they get their money it's a poor reflection of society. We spend more time getting off or pretending to than we do creating an economy and society where sex isn't a trade but something intimate between individuals.

A popular porn site offers a service where amateurs can upload their own videos and profit but it's still questionable in my opinion. I think the craziest thing is how many of these stars do porn and drugs to numb themselves but addiction to porn numbs the user.

https://m.ranker.com/list/adult-stars-who-committed-suicide/celebrity-lists

https://mdaily.bhaskar.com/news/TOP-porn-star-suicides-5440510-PHO.html
 

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Mormon actually. She wanted to completely escape porn and Mormons don't allow it.

I think porn typically draws in individuals with traumas, cases of abuse, ignorance less so, and degeneracy in general. It's one thing to watch it but to actually think about the woman and how many times she's probably had to shoot the scene, if she's drugged, whether these male porn are abusing them, etc it makes it all way less sexy. We see the glamour but it's a depressing trade where you're only worth your assets and time is against you.

I've heard and read that it isn't uncommon for many stars to be prostitutes to elite despite being well off in film. Trump helps prove it with Stormy Daniels but it's all prostitution in the end aided by color of law and while I'm not mad at how they get their money it's a poor reflection of society. We spend more time getting off or pretending to than we do creating an economy and society where sex isn't a trade but something intimate between individuals.

A popular porn site offers a service where amateurs can upload their own videos and profit but it's still questionable in my opinion. I think the craziest thing is how many of these stars do porn and drugs to numb themselves but addiction to porn numbs the user.

https://m.ranker.com/list/adult-stars-who-committed-suicide/celebrity-lists

https://mdaily.bhaskar.com/news/TOP-porn-star-suicides-5440510-PHO.html
Some of them are well off and escort and some of them are not, so they escort and strip.
Mia Khalifa was doing an escort tour despite having at one point retired from the porn industry.
Some actresses prefer escorting because they can screen johns and they don't have to have sex with people they don't want to have sex with.
As for August, it's a terrible story. She was young and could have walked away and done anything.
 
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The psychology that drove the porn actors and actresses to get involved in this industry saddens me albeit fascinating.

It's easy to get addicted to porn, but once the viewers get to know the people behind such personas, would they still jack off ?
 
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To be fair I think someone who does porn is probably already pretty damaged. I liked one by the name of “Skin Diamond” but then I noticed cutting scars on her body and felt bad.
 

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I dont know about Western Pornstars but in Japan, being pornstar doesnt always mean they need money. There are rich girls who become pornstar just because they like sex.

I'm sorry for the pornstar, RIP.
 

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Every single girl i had spoken to who worked as an escort, all of them had a psychological damage in their youth days.
Mostly very bad relationship with parents or perverted uncles or abusive step dads or boyfriends..

The ones who say that they enjoy having sex and also get money for it as a bonus, is more uncommon and usually their story is much more deeper than that.

I might be wrong but its my opinion, but i personally think most girls in the escort/porn business had some sort of psychological damage in their past.

I also agree that most porn stars are also Escorts.. They provide PSE (Porn Star Experience)

And there's lots of alcohol and drugs involved...

The whole business is an exploitation.
 

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Porn is a magnification of the spirits of the age. There are many victims ensnared which in turn creates more victims who watch, participate etc. It is a built-in system which carries on despite any sidetrack that comes up for it is controlled by the most devious of forces.

MKU is very prevalent in porn and they seek damaged minds who pass the lust-look test to be fantasies to many. Once lured in, they push actors to the brink tearing down all their inhibitions until used up at an early age. The adoration of a hot new star always burns out and we hear of many instances such as the link in this thread.

Most of this stuff is shot in Cali where there are literally cults surrounding the business. If you think Hollywood is bad, the porn industry makes it pale in comparison.
 

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Interesting, because porn producers are always like "we put no pressure on the talent whatsoever!" Um, then why would they make anyone sign a waiver?

The industry won't change unless we force it to. Now I don't really watch porn anymore, but if I did I would make all porn sexy. In doing so I would alleviate at least two potential problems. The talent would be more psychologically balanced, and it would pay for itself just by never getting sued.
 
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