Usually it last 2 years until Saturn move on. I'm 29 now and when I was 27 I had suicide thoughts too. Suddenly my friends and partner left me, situation in my job was unbearable and I just felt like my life is falling apart. My health got worse too. And it happen all in once just 3 months after my 27 birthday. I was isolated and in very bad state of mind. But suddenly after almost 1 year of hell everything got back to normal again. I met new boyfriend who indroduced me to his friends who started to hang out with me also I found new job which I love to do and is very peaceful. It's like when I was 27 I had a temporary mental illness that came and go suddenly. I know is very cheesy saying but it's true that what doesn't kill you will make you stronger. I hope you feel better now SHinEeHeaven
Sorry guys for non related kpop post but I just wanted to share with you something. My ex boyfriend was a singer in underground rock band. He was meeting with producers, going to audicions, sending demos to companies etc... After some time his band got a contract. It was not a big or rich company but they were promoting bands like this so my ex was happy. So then he changed a lot. He was reading a lot, meeting strange people... One day he told me he need to talk with me seriously about something that changed his life. He started to talk how he found the truth about.... baphomet. And that God is actually evil, that we have been prisoners, that satan released us from God's chains, that everything in this world is a lie and he is "illuminated" with truth now. I joked that he should stop watching "Chilling adventures of Sabrina" because is messing his head but he was very serious and said he suspected I won't understand him. We broke up, he left to live in other city to continue music career.
Just one more thing. After he got a contract he said if they will ever shoot a music video he wants me to be in it and wear animal print dress and be his "kitty". Then I really started to believe that all this illuminati stuff in is real.