neptunejoo
Established
- Joined
- Aug 27, 2018
- Messages
- 175
Hello everyone, i'm new here...i see that you guys know a lot about dark sides of kpop (and music industry in general) and i would like to share my story with you (it's gonna be long, i'm sorry hahah)
I was about 13 when i got into BTS. I wasn't really depressed, let's just say i was going through a lot at that time. I just felt like i needed something new in my life, something that would make me happy, and then, my friend showed me bts, and ofcourse, i started to like them very much. I soon became a fan, and so did almost all of my friends, and we would talk about them all the time and laugh together. We were having so much fun...however, im not gonna add too much details because i don't want this post to be too long. So, everything seemed perfect, but one day, i started feeling that something was off. I was watching their concert on youtube and as always, i was looking at taehyung because he's been my favourite member ever since i got into bts. However, i noticed that he looked very upset all the time. He had a very serious expression on his face, for a few moments he even seemed mad (?), but then he started to cry? Even tho i didn't know about the truth at that time, i could clearly see that something just wasn't okay. Actually, that something was horribly wrong. I started to pannic and i ended up crying. I was really worried...after 3 months, my cousin that was also into bts sent me a picture of jin throwing the 'ok' sign over his eye and a video about satanism. I didn't believe it at first and just went to bed because it was late. When it hit me. They were dancing on a black and white chessboard in the 'we are bulletproof' mv. I was really scared now, but i still managed to fall asleep. I woke up in the middle of the night. I was so nervous that i decided to check if my assumptions were right. I prayed to Jesus before doing so and then took my phone. I typed in 'is bts connected to the illuminati' (ok, i actually thought they were illuminati at that time, i didn't know much about that stuff)...and at that moment, my heart broke. The band that i've been listening for almost a year, the band that made me happy, those people that i loved so much...were satanists. I was having an actual pannic attack now. I was crying so hard and my head hurt. What should i do now? Can i still listen to their music? What if something happens? Will i ever see them again? I deleted all of their pictures from my phone and i hid all of their posters in a box that i keep under my table. I couldn't cut them and throw them away. They mean a lot to me. Still. After that, i wanted to leave bts but something just kept telling me 'you dont know the whole story, don't judge'. And so, i decided to do a research and saw stories about young traineees being abused and forced into satanism. I was schocked. Everything is so creepy! I also heard about sacraficing, mk ultra, rituals...i know a lot about it now, and i'm not mad at bts anymore...i'm actually just really concerned. Dont get me wrong! I'm not saying they are innocent or anything, i'm just saying that i worry about them a lot (not all the time, i dont wanna be obsessed with it). It still hurts so bad to hear things like this, even tho it's been almost a year since i found out about them being involved into satanism. I would say more but the post its REALLY long already, hahahah sorryyy...i have so much more to say but it would be too long then, really...thanks to everyone who read this < 3
Ps. I still pray for bts every day, i can see how unhappy they are and sometimes they look so sick of this, it's sad :,(
You are 14 I presume. It's gonna be okay. Soon you'll detach from them.
Occupy ur mind and life with positive habits like serving the community, book club, extracurricular: such a drama, theatre, engage with people around you. Start conversation with new people with u are that bored. Go hiking. Go jogging, walk ur pet.
It's easy to replace them with more important stuff. Believe me