So did you join by choice?
No, but it's tough to say with Monarch programming. If they can arrange two people to get married. They can arrange people to fight. In my case it was some serious Satanic boss and his henchmen. And I was engaging in my own attention seeking behavior, not unlike what I'm doing here. So I acknowledge my own actions played a part, and understand if people are skeptical. About me or Mk-Ultra in general.
I don't believe that anything I did warranted the Trial by fire I got though. They not only fired me but harassed and tried to humiliate me too They even gave me my job back because they simply weren't satisfied with the first firing. It was really weird and it made me start to question WTF is wrong with my life. I ended up killing two birds with one stone. I learned about archetypes and totally outsmarted them.
I still work there too, and it's the girls that lead me to really believe in Mk Ultra. And believe my life has been arranged. If these are trials they get X rated, than XXX rated from there. It goes from a hardcore version of the Goonies, to a hardcore version of spirit cooking