Brea
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- Jun 7, 2019
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Hum..I don't find it hard at all to be without a family..well when I'm bedridden I do but other than that I stopped needing them years ago now. I'm good on my own. I have no hard feelings tho, we're all good with each other and all that. It's common in sweden to not have family and be alone.
Well I cant say I'm going through harder times than before, if anything I feel alot better actually..right now at least. But strong I am, yes. people keep telling me that too. I never really understood it until I saw some of them going through just one thing I had and they got all sobby and started drinking, one of them..I've made it through being homeless twice, four rapes, a beaten up hand, 42 years of severe sickness to the point of disability and 8 years of bullying at school until I was homeschooled. Top that off with all bad relationships and sprinkle with some bad friendships and stalking aswell and heeey! But it's all for a reason. As you say when you have a higher calling in life, Satan will attack from above, below, left and right and when you least expect it. (And he's not a bad boxer, mind you) It's been so much that now I just laugh and go "Plz, what can you possibly do to me?" My ex once told me "Or I'll make your life a living hell" I chuckled and said "So what can you do that hasnt already been done?" He got silent, haha!
I did ask God a few times if this was from him? He replied "Noo!" in a way that could not be mistaken so I never asked him again. Feels a bit strange though..I'm such a small insignificant person, I'm noone really, and I have a mission? Wow..But it is the most honourable one.
Oh my gosh.... that's just...it's sad you went through it, but it's GOOD you've been pushing through with the Lord. It seems to me satan thought he could trick you into hating the Lord for all you've been through. Nah, HE'S WRONG. HE MESSED WITH THE WRONG ONE. HE THOUGHT HE WAS POWERFUL OVER YOU. Ha, you thought satan.
Wow! I'm just amazed. I'm actually inspired by you to push through. I mean if someone can go through all of THAT and STILL be with God, that's amazing.
We have people thinking because they're rich and they have money, nothing ever bad can happen to them. Oh...how foolish they are. My family is average, more on the poor side. We live in an apartment, and we haven't moved in over 10 years. I would go to school hearing people talking about how they're moving, and how many times they've moved in their lives. I thought, "I wish my family can afford that much money. I'm actually tired of staying in the same area ever since I was a toddler." I'm a young teenager. And I have to say, it's nice to talk to a mature adult about this (you) y'know?
There's only 4 of us, so we take turns going to the store to get the food we need. I told my friend how nice my parents are, and she said "Oh well when I was little, I wasn't spoiled like you" I'm like what? Please, they discipline me a LOT.
Anyways, my mom spreads the Gospel by placing tracks in some places. If you don't know, tracks are little comics about repentance. My dad, well he doesn't really leave the house unless he's going to get us food. He's VERY sick and can hardly pay the bills. I don't know how my sister spreads the Gospel. And last but not least, I spread it on social media. I also try to tell my classmates about it, but they just don't care.
It's hard walking in High School halls seeing everyone with groups of friends and even boyfriends/girlfriends that have much money. And then there's me, alone because God warned his people they would lose family members and friends because his people believe in him and are not of the flesh. I see what he means. I don't really have any friends, it's pretty awkward talking to people.
Yeah I went through a HORRIBLE spiritual war, to the point where satan and myself for listening, caused my grades to go down, I have to go to summer school. I'm kind of mean at times to my sister for no reason, and I can't even take care of myself that well. But since God has helped me, I am able to take care of myself, and try to live better in the spirit.
I always tell myself that I'm happy what God has provided my family and I with and that I don't need anything else. I really don't. Though there's times I wish I could live in a house instead, with more rooms... but I always say, if I ever get rich, I'm giving my family and people in need who need it. I'm THAT considerate, like of all the things I wish I could have, I already know I'd end up helping others rather than myself.
You have an amazing testimony! I'm only 14 (about to become 15) and... Once we meet each other in heaven, please make sure to give me a BIG HUG ma'am!