Are you joking?Well, please don't bring that dark spirit here, Mr. Blah!
I feel you.
Oh BTW,
If you have not Christ you are none of His.Are you joking?
My "dark side" is my tendency to skepticism, perpetual unbelief and atheism.
"Personal demon", you could say.
But, luckily, "Thank God", I still support some tenets fully in Christianity.
You could see them in my threads.
DD, are you Spek?
LOL is that you Anthony? I bet it is cause your fasting periods where you disappear are a little suspicious. I hope its you. Come on fess up, I better not be wrong!
Thanks for the link.
I hope so cause it didn't feel like it. I have social anxiety and get scared easily of people wanting to bully me. It happens a lot and I can never get away from it. I am somewhat happier than I was. The reason I say I think God hates me is because every day anything and everything that could go wrong would. I'm not looking for a pity-party or sympathy, it hurt when you said that cause its not true. But no matter what I did or say, never made a difference. I couldn't catch a break. It wasn't until I cursed god. And I mean I really cursed him. I said every blasphemous thing I could think of, I flipped him off and taunted him to just smite me lol. I even brought up people he killed in the OT for what I thought was stupid reasons, like Aaron's sons for bringing god strange fire, or what's his name for pulling out and spilling his seed. The bible says not to test god, but I did. Still he wouldn't kill me. Sounds stupid and crazy but I was really just fed up with all the bullshit going on in my life. A constant storm that kept raging tearing my family and my life apart. I had it. I got into Wicca and so far my life is getting better. I still have bad days, but nothing like before. Oh....and if I prayed....omg all hell would break loose in my life. Every time I prayed to god, it was like I was putting a curse on myself. That's why I believe he hates me. He's never done anything to help me or my family. So that is that.
I deleted them, you can delete yours if you want. I just don't want to make a dramatic scene that's all.
That sucks, sorry to hear it. My advice is to not get hung up on circumstances, focus on your inner state of being regardless of circumstances. Learn to move and navigate no matter what life hands you. It's easier said than done, I understand. You'll get there, but you have to trust in yourself. Religion is not a good fit for everyone, don't sweat it. You can still have faith without belief. Have you ever tried therapy?
There are people on youtube that do whisper videos, meditation videos and just lots of awesome relaxtion videos. I'm suppose to start therapy June 1st but I try to manage and deal with it on my own. I won't take any meds for anything I have. If I start getting upset or full of anxiety, I listen to music and sometimes dance until I have nothing left in me.