It's hard too tell. I guess it wasnt intentional. It's really complicated cuz my family (from my mother's side) is this big never ending cycle of abuse in which the abused always becomes abuser towards her children. And there are also some mental illnesses so it's really complicated. It goes through many generations so its impossible to tell when this cycle started.
The reason why I wrote about this was that when it started I didnt know what it was and spend lot of time trying to Google it but I only found similar things not the same things so I thought its interesting enough to mention it.
It's really comforting to find someone who is experiencing the same thing.
I am really really sorry for that....generational abuse and mental illness are particularly hard and it is very difficult to break the cycle...
I didn't know so many here also have personal experiences with intense traumas, abuse etc.
Without going into too much depth or oversharing, but just to share it too, I also went through very long, intense multiple traumas which affect
me to this day in very difficult ways. Also the generational pain/abuse, that part in particular is very awful. There are insanely dysfunctional dynamics, and the worst part is when someone is being abusive, but not intentionally, and they have no self awareness AT ALL, and simply do not comprehend that they are being abusive. Among other things, I have especially severe dissociation, mood shifts, other stuff.
All these experiences are also one part of the reason for my ongoing research/interest into this overall topic of the nwo/mind control/illuminat* etc.
A while ago I also found out about a more distant family member having been a freemason......mhh. I dont know whether that has a meaningful role in my trauma or not...my dad is atheist and my mum very christian so I dunno. Then there's also a military connection in the family.
Those things have made me a little paranoid, made me feel very uneasy.
I feel a strange "connection" and knowledge/ or understanding when I am confronted with some of all the symbolisms etc. that are discussed here. But it is impossible to explain it with words. Pretty recently I had a really frightening experience in regards to that.
There is a lot to be uncovered with all these topics I think.
Especially the generational aspect, is what interests me the most. With all this talk about "DNA" (like in the btß song), I am thinking more and more that it might be that certain knowledges or scripts can be passed down generationally without ppl knowing.
I wonder whether there are generational victims of mind control/etc. that are like "asleep" slaves, and maybe the purpose of all the symbolism triggers in all the contents is not only to just assert power and spread the agenda, but also to "wake up" those asleep slaves.
The phrase "wake up" etc. is all over the place.
It's just a theory of mine though and I'm being careful to not rush to conclusions and keep my mind open to everything.
Also please don't call me delusional or anything, at the end of the day I just suffered a lot of trauma and abuse and I am just trying to figure it all out. Also like I said I never rush to conclusions. But that family stuff I mentioned, and other occurrences and patterns in my life have made me suspicious and got me thinking and confused.
Lots of love to everyone, trauma is very very hard to deal with. I care very deeply about this abuse issue and even though all these artists and ppl that we talk about here have probably done some evil stuff too, I still do feel very very deeply for them and wish the abuse they have been through could be uncovered and exposed.
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