Hi I’m so sorry you are going through depressed emotions but I just want to say that the best thing you can do for yourself is to stay positive and to find light in this dark situation. Satan is negative. Anything associated with Satan feeds off negative emotions and energies you put out. Satan, demons, evil ghosts, bad entities, whatever you believe is full of anger, sadness, jealously, hatred, any negative emotion you can think of. God, creator of the universe, what you believe is full of JUST love. So when you feel love and put out love, you are having a mental state or consciousness as god. Not saying you are a god, but you are connecting with god. When you have negative emotions, you are connecting with Satan or any negative beings. Emotions are natural but if you let them linger in the form of depression, you are not helping yourself at all. When I first got into conspiracies I was depressed but I realized that’s what these evil people in power want. They want you to feel these negative emotions, they affect you on a soul level. The best thing you can do is stay positive and to turn any negative emotion into a positive thought/emotion. It’s like a mental workout haha but doable as I’m in the process of doing so.at first when i figured out this is and HAS BEEN going on for a long time around just when i thought life couldn't be any worse i really thought i was being trolled. and still being trolled right now too because it's just beyond satanic. can't even put into words how fucking satanic. i'm too weak for this mk ultra hullabaloo. i've been putting off reading The Illuminati Formula Used to Create an Undetectable Total Mind Controlled Slave by Cisco Wheeler and Fritz Springmeier because i know i'm going to be affected by how they program the human mind controlled slave like a computer, even just glossing over the table of contents it's really hard trying to absorb what it is. it's so fucked up and i'm so stumped because no one outside of this community accepts that it's happening. they think the world is working towards their favor and interests when they could care less about your wellbeing. this is what i felt. the reason why it doesn't stop at not giving a shit about our wellbeing is because satan hates humans. that's why he goes far above and beyond to reach and pull out indescribable despair out of humans. i know it's all unfolding and coming to the open for god's end glory but the stark chaotic contrast to that which is satan's plans for the destruction of humanity imploding, it's too much i can't help wanting to die. i've been depressed before but not this much. to the point where i genuinely wish i wasn't born. i was trying to reply earlier but i was too depresso i didn't even have the energy to type.
when they're programmed and abused by those slobby dorito fingered filthy dirtbag meatsack pedos in a million one eyed piss thongs under their captain fat pants doesn't it mean they don't really have a choice because like no shit they're under mk ultra and if their personalities are all split up then their main personality wouldn't even really be fine either only appear fine on the outside. how would it be? when there are a bunch of alters inside of them. they're being controlled by their handlers so how is that having a choice? i feel like they only have a choice when it comes to the kpop contract and not given a choice about being programmed against their will. so once they get programmed i find it hard to believe they have any choice about the way they've been affected to the core that's why they continue to be a star and seem fine on the outside when they don't know they're not. and their main personality IS affected by the alters in them that's why they become so sick and haggard outwardly. and at one point all those dark alters seep through into the main one so everyone thinks they like being what they are and doing what they do but the trauma that's not plainly visible is them not being able to have a choice to escape at all. when they're "sober and fine" aren't they still subconsciously impacted by the abuse they secretly go through? and if they do something questionable it's due to that? sorry if the question doesn't make sense i'm trying to understand it as there's a lot to stomach in. like unless when they signed their contract they choked a baby to death and ate the baby whole afterwards i don't see how their sober selves are innately evil and proud of what they are. they actually think they're normal so they act that way with no signs of being abused in the industry aside from the evilblatant symbolism. when they don't even know they're forced to do weird ritual shit/forced to put up with sexual abuse in what i'm assuming solely their alters. so what i'm saying is even if they had a choice that's not really having a choice due to their actions being subconsciously influenced by their alters.
Anyways the people in power are abusing our free will definitely but I used to think some celebrities didn’t ask for mk uktra or they didn't have a choice and are being held against their will. I don’t know any of their situations but on some level they had to agree with it. I feel like they did have a choice on some level. At this point I really think that all celebrities made a conscious decision to sell their lives for money and fame. Then after that they have no choice to how far it goes. Maybe they said yes to selling their soul and getting into a contract with a label(which really means I sell my life to you, do as you please) so maybe they didn’t want to be a sex kitten but they are forced to so anyways. So they didn’t have a choice about being a sex slave but in some way its their fault and their responsibility because they shouldn’t have signed that contract or sold their soul. its just my opinion though.
I also want to add that this world is obviously a crazy, awful, suffering place but if you know the truth then why would you add to all the negativity? If you know the truth, you should want to put out more love and positivity to counteract with what’s happening. Just my thoughts. I also understand everyone's emotions and feelings because I have been there at some point in my life and we are all on different levels of spirituality and Awakening.
another note is that don’t torture yourself by reading all these conspiracies. Some people just can’t handle it and do better by reading other positive material. Some people’s life purpose isn’t to awaken to these truths but rather help people in other ways. Anyways thank you for sharing your thoughts, I’m sure some poeple on this thread relate to you in some way.