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kittybratxx

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Ok so im really losing my mind right now im struggling with everything i keep thinking about killing myself and.others..

I have a meeting with a therapist on monday but idk what im going to do





I dont want anything fromlife at all i give up i feel like all my buttons are being pushed and im struggling so much....



Anyone have any ideas on how to deal with this? I am constantly on edge have severe anxiety and depression but no one is helping me not even the doctors.
 

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Describe your symptoms EXACTLY. I mean nail it to the core and maybe I know what it is..Too little information to go on now. Include it all from loosing hair to dropping a toenail.
 

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I recently stopped taking my anti depressants not by choice. Buy they messed up my prescription twice by not informing me it was in so i figure why even bother.. im feeling better today thankfully. Their was just so much going on last week that was getting to me
Glad you're still here and alive. Take care of yourself and remember that you know your own body so if doctors are giving you medications that give you side effects, don't let them talk you into taking stuff that doesn't work for you.
 

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I recently stopped taking my anti depressants not by choice. Buy they messed up my prescription twice by not informing me it was in so i figure why even bother.. im feeling better today thankfully. Their was just so much going on last week that was getting to me
lol You're far from alone. I stopped last summer after 22 years on Zoloft and you know what happened? Nothing! Absolutely nothing. So go figure they made no difference except giving money to big pharma, haha!
 

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Glad you're still here and alive. Take care of yourself and remember that you know your own body so if doctors are giving you medications that give you side effects, don't let them talk you into taking stuff that doesn't work for you.
Well spoken, Dalit-gurl! <3
 

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lol You're far from alone. I stopped last summer after 22 years on Zoloft and you know what happened? Nothing! Absolutely nothing. So go figure they made no difference except giving money to big pharma, haha!
You're one of the lucky ones! I've heard (and read well-documented) horror stories.
 

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You're one of the lucky ones! I've heard (and read well-documented) horror stories.
Yeah? I'd love to partake and read them.. I actually tried Fluoextin aswell, dont know the english name for them and on the highest dose, I felt like I had no emotions. Did not get happy, sad, scared or intrigued, all feelings were completely gone and I was like a robot or a psychopath. Scary so I got off them. Also tried mirtazapin for a short while which had me sitting like a zombie while drooling on myself. Couldnt pay bills, socialise or function in any way so called my doc and got off those too. Scary things! He told me I'd get used to them but no, that was way too much for me... Drooling and being completely gone is a nono for me.

However with the zoloft I only noticed a reduction in anxiety, thats all. And now finally..We've found the cause of the problem and are treating the physical illness that caused it all. :)
 

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Yeah? I'd love to partake and read them.. I actually tried Fluoextin aswell, dont know the english name for them and on the highest dose, I felt like I had no emotions. Did not get happy, sad, scared or intrigued, all feelings were completely gone and I was like a robot or a psychopath. Scary so I got off them. Also tried mirtazapin for a short while which had me sitting like a zombie while drooling on myself. Couldnt pay bills, socialise or function in any way so called my doc and got off those too. Scary things! He told me I'd get used to them but no, that was way too much for me... Drooling and being completely gone is a nono for me.

However with the zoloft I only noticed a reduction in anxiety, thats all. And now finally..We've found the cause of the problem and are treating the physical illness that caused it all. :)
In US, they're called prozac and remeron, respectively. Remeron makes most people gain weight when they start taking it. It's different from zoloft and prozac (ssri's)-- iirc, it's an nsri* (will verify). Had a roommate who took the high dose of fluoxetine like you but had the opposite effect-- she went manic. She was taking a fistfull of other meds, too... but on that (the fluoxetine), she tried to off herself, so-- yeah.

If you want to read about the realities you won't hear in the news, this book is an excellent start:
DR P. BREGGIN TALKING BACK TO PROZAC


*IT'S AN SNRI
 

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In US, they're called prozac and remeron, respectively. Remeron makes most people gain weight when they start taking it. It's different from zoloft and prozac (ssri's)-- iirc, it's an nsri* (will verify). Had a roommate who took the high dose of fluoxetine like you but had the opposite effect-- she went manic. She was taking a fistfull of other meds, too... but on that (the fluoxetine), she tried to off herself, so-- yeah.

If you want to read about the realities you won't hear in the news, this book is an excellent start:
DR P. BREGGIN TALKING BACK TO PROZAC


*IT'S AN SNRI
Interesting since antidepressants have been known to cause mania, yet theyre still prescribed to those who can go manic. Remeron is the old name of them here aswell but they change names every 10 years or so and yes, my friend gained weight on them, in fact theres alot of weightgain on antidepressants especially antipsychotics. A friend went from 60kg, 180cm tall to 220kg in a short time due to them. Poor guy... :/

Wish I could read the book but I cant read that long texts anymore. :/
 

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I recently stopped taking my anti depressants not by choice. Buy they messed up my prescription twice by not informing me it was in so i figure why even bother.. im feeling better today thankfully. Their was just so much going on last week that was getting to me
Yeah seek medical care. If prescribed do take your medication. If they are the proper meds that is.


You sound overburdened in life. Take some time for yourself once in awhile. I used to like to grab a lunch, sit around and listen to favorite music as a relaxer. Used to settle me down when my day or even life seemed hectic.


You're not alone in feeling pressured/overwhelmed. I know first hand what high stress can bring. Just know that you're a lot stronger than any circumstance.
 

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Interesting since antidepressants have been known to cause mania, yet theyre still prescribed to those who can go manic.
Diagnosis isn't so important these days-- seems more like a crapshoot. Throw it against the wall and see what sticks. If nothing, then start adding to the mix, rather than taking away. Adverse reaction? Who cares-- no one will believe the testimony of crazy person anyway. What a racket.
 

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Fear not. Lots of people here helped me with favorable messages when I had a depressive episode earlier this year.

I'm also a clicinal pharmachist with some years of experience. What i've noticed is that most people who have depression or anxiety have lots of underlying reasons for this (I've figured mine but it still hard sometimes), so it doesn't matter if they take their meds or not because the real reason is still under there.

I'm glad you're visiting a therapist. Before you start your session you should ask what is your therapist's approach because you might not like this particular therapist because of it, this doesn't mean that all kinds of therapeutical approaches won't work for you.

Do you have any kind of trauma? Has anything bad happened in your life? I've seen a lady here that took lots of kinds of medicine but they didn't work and she was starting to develop seretononinergic syndrome. what happened however was that her daughter was killed by criminals years ago and she never really got over this.
 

Maes17

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Fear not. Lots of people here helped me with favorable messages when I had a depressive episode earlier this year.

I'm also a clicinal pharmachist with some years of experience. What i've noticed is that most people who have depression or anxiety have lots of underlying reasons for this (I've figured mine but it still hard sometimes), so it doesn't matter if they take their meds or not because the real reason is still under there.

I'm glad you're visiting a therapist. Before you start your session you should ask what is your therapist's approach because you might not like this particular therapist because of it, this doesn't mean that all kinds of therapeutical approaches won't work for you.

Do you have any kind of trauma? Has anything bad happened in your life? I've seen a lady here that took lots of kinds of medicine but they didn't work and she was starting to develop seretononinergic syndrome. what happened however was that her daughter was killed by criminals years ago and she never really got over this.
Ooh damn! I can see why traumatic experiences especially a loss of one's old child. :(

But I do agree, meds don't help when stress from life grab hold.
Sometimes I feel we are so pushed in the pursuit of living on grid, we lose touch with quiet and simple moments that do a lot for the soul. I've been working a lot of hours lately, I found a simple little sandwich date on a park bench sitting with my son really instilled a peace in me that has pushed me through the rest of the month.

I think it's even harder for you guys on medication cause sometimes talking about your problems, gives people that illusion that you're just in a loony state. Glad the help is out there and all you VC peeps have my support
 

elsbet

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Fear not. Lots of people here helped me with favorable messages when I had a depressive episode earlier this year.

I'm also a clicinal pharmachist with some years of experience. What i've noticed is that most people who have depression or anxiety have lots of underlying reasons for this (I've figured mine but it still hard sometimes), so it doesn't matter if they take their meds or not because the real reason is still under there.

I'm glad you're visiting a therapist. Before you start your session you should ask what is your therapist's approach because you might not like this particular therapist because of it, this doesn't mean that all kinds of therapeutical approaches won't work for you.

Do you have any kind of trauma? Has anything bad happened in your life? I've seen a lady here that took lots of kinds of medicine but they didn't work and she was starting to develop seretononinergic syndrome. what happened however was that her daughter was killed by criminals years ago and she never really got over this.
So dangerous. :/

Friend of mine was put on antidepressants after his dad died, but they made him feel worse-- the side effects were too much . He basically said-- screw it... it's normal, and there's nothing wrong with me. I'm supposed to be sad about this, right now. He was right imo.

You can't really medicate situational depression, and expect to heal.. you won't. You'll go into stasis and stop the natural process, altogether. People do the same thing with drugs and alcohol, all the time, stunting (any hope of) emotional growth or healing. Talk therapy is highly underrated imo.
 

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You can't really medicate situational depression, and expect to heal.. you won't. You'll go into stasis and stop the natural process, altogether. People do the same thing with drugs and alcohol, all the time, stunting (any hope of) emotional growth or healing. Talk therapy is highly underrated imo.
I don't think antidepressants are the answer. The pharmaceutical industry just wants your money, they benefit off of you not going well. These stuff just make you more dependant.
For me fasting has helped for emotional healing (even just for a 1 or a few days). Especially if you're the type that uses food as a way to cope with stress. You'll end up crying if you have any kind of blockage and you'll feel lighter after. We don't talk a lot about the emotional benefits of fasting.
Exercising and eating healthy - as crazy simple as that sounds also does wonders for me. Exercise just gets you out of your own head.
Then surrounding yourself with positive people.
Therapy also really helps if you find a good therapist.
 

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lol You're far from alone. I stopped last summer after 22 years on Zoloft and you know what happened? Nothing! Absolutely nothing. So go figure they made no difference except giving money to big pharma, haha![/QUOTEs

I stopped taking sertraline I think is the name of it. felt horrible like I was loosing my mind literally anxiety was crazy but now I'm about a month with out it and I can honestly say I feel a million times better
 
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