@luffychan I was so brainwashed, I listened to her songs every day, I listened to remixes and mashups, I liked all her tweets and texted her "I love you queen" "slay" "you're the best", I downloaded her music on my phone... Basically everything that a (poor) fan does haha.
Her songs played all day long in my head. I dreamed of going to her concerts one day and screaming the lyrics I had learned by heart.
I talked about her to my friends " you know, Ariana did that" or "you know, Ariana said that" She was my idol.
But I guess I loved more her persona? I don't even know who she is now, she might look the same from the outside but she seems off.
By the way I still have "Be Alright" as my phone ringtone so I guess I still haven't moved on fully from that phase. There's a lot of stuff I need to delete from my phone.