sure, jan. i really don't care what religion you follow, but it's the arrogance to assume you're the only one that is following the true path, when every other religion says the same thing. you're blind. and no i don't fear god and no one should fear god, like you say. that's the shit you're told to keep you in line, and it fucking works. you're programming has worked, congrats.
also i'll add, this whole "fear god" shit or else you'll feel his wrath, is just human traits you've projected on this imaginary man, that is most likely how you felt about your parents as a child. If your parents were loving, you think god is loving. If they were mean, you think god is mean. I wish people would wake up to common sense. But whatever, keep doing you, keep reinforcing that programming of yours that serves those in power and men that want women to be subservient. They're so proud of you, I bet.
And the whole "i've heard all the vile things about my religion" shit you said, is just you trying to get "good" points. "Oh how i've suffered! in the name of my faith! i am so holy! and good! see me? i'm good! god please love me!
" basically trying to get your parents approval, projected onto "god". But I guess you can't see it, that's how trauma works.