Hi all. I'm already a lurker here from around January or february and onwards. I'm a college student. I never was a big fan from beetee* because i didn't know why they were special. i asked some people and they told me how hard working they were but actually everyone is hardworking especially people who don't let it see in public. I felt wierd whenever i saw something related to bee tee $ And eventually i got used to it but found it awkward when i saw their popularity. so. After the incident with sh*ne*, after i finished my exam, i got in shock and found it wierd, i wanted to know more information then what we got from the media, I wanted to know more, i just wanted to know more. I went to youtube and found a person in the comments saying something related to this , I don't know why but i think deep i knew something was going on, i felt like like, "woa! finally someone who says something different! i knew i wasnt the only one!" , i somehow got to this site and hesitated to trust the site because i was a reaaaal scaredy cat back then to even see wierd pictures. I searched a lot on the internet about mk ultra and all of these stuff but obviously imo i still think i know almost nothing about it. I was a scaredy cat, inthe dark and i was scared for every sound i heard, i basically got jumpscares when i hear small sounds, so me, reading what was written here, made me more scared than i was and that i even had hardships to go peacefully to sleep. I made a new rule to take some breaks from the forum once in a while and woa... before i knew it after a few months... i overcame the scaredness and finally I'm not scared anymore. I think i even became more brave because of it. I also became more confident and slowly was more and more grateful about me, who i was, where i lived, my family. I'm happy i found out about this, I'm not scared, I won't allow myself to be scared. I wont allow music to play with my feelings and to let me think what they want. I won't allow myself to depend on music to be happy. I want to learn to be happy with the stuff i have, not with what i don't have. Sorry that it's so long. lol
Also, Just want to mention, a few years ago, at high school, my history teacher would tell me that i wasn't critical enough, i wrote about my opinion and what i found wierd, still i got no points for it. And now I'm here. I guess we had different perspectives.
I wanted to tell you my opinion as why this forum isn't closed. I could be wrong. If it gets deleted it would mean that we were being watched and it would be basically a confirmation that what we said, some of the stuff, could be right. Then we basically have prove already imo. Also we aren't big compared to the arm* itself, If they would give attention to us, it actually already means that some aspects that is written could be true. You know, without digging we can't find prove because we only leearn stuff that the goverment wants us, in school and media. I could be wrong because I'm pretty naive imo. we should not neglect the truth, even if it's something you don't like.
Sometimes it's for me also awkward to know what is a lie or not so i try to stay away from media. i do know something, music and entertainment industry is messed up. Media is messed up.
I respect everyone's opinion.This is my first comment so I'm sorry if i write weird because my english isn't that good.
I want to tell one thing more, whatever evil and dark stuff we learn, don't let it affect your happiness. Take a walk in the nature and remember that good will win in the end. Let's try stay awake and not follow masses blindly. Nothing is impossible. Our intention is what matters.
